Chapter 724
Chapter 724
The light flowing out of my body subsided. At the same time, I began to understand why I had not been able to find divine power or magic power.
How can you feel each drop of water when you are underwater? That was exactly how I was. At the same time, just thinking about it made my crazy power to search and collect everything around me start to weaken, and my thoughts that made me think of myself as a god, as if I had another brain, also fade away.
“···Mr. Sanyeom, can I see just one last thing?”
I felt a great sense of relief there, but a sudden thought occurred to me and I had to stop Mr. Sanyeom for a moment.
[Is there anything else you would like to ask for?]
“I want to see some of my childhood memories…”
Since it has the power to read other people’s memories, wouldn’t it be easy to look back on your own memories?
The memory of the day the village burned is still vivid, but since the human brain only remembers bad things, my memories of my childhood before that are already faint. Since I don’t have a picture of my parents, maybe this is a chance to re-image them.
[It’s not difficult.]
With that in mind, the spirit of thought lightly nodded at my request and returned some of the power he had been absorbing from me. Then, the divinity regained its function and instantly recreated the memory, and the pure white space had soon turned into my hometown that had not burned down.
[It is said that this is the memory where the feeling of joy was the strongest.]
After hearing Mr. Sanyeom’s explanation, I remembered.
It was definitely the day I first heard from my mother that magic existed. Before that, I had never felt any magic in my neighborhood, so I thought I was just dropped into a hardcore medieval world. I think I was five? It was probably not long after that day that I learned that monsters also existed.
[After seeing your memories, I understand your sincerity.]
I don’t know if it was because it was not a big deal to the gods or because it was a consideration for me, but Sanyeom-nim didn’t bother to ask me about my coming from another world.
[But not everyone who gets such an opportunity is faithful.]
He just mentioned it in passing. After that, Sanyeomnim remained silent until I could fully look back on my hometown and parents in my memories.
-Is it really that great that there is magic?
-Aren’t all kids like that? I was like that when I was little too.
– Really? Is that a characteristic of Western continental people?
After learning to read, I brought a boring history book, which would have been a surprise to other children, to the village chief’s house, and I read it, saying it was like a fantasy novel. I overheard my parents talking while I was in my room.
Did you have this conversation? I don’t think there will be any distortion in my memory, so it seems like it includes even the parts I didn’t recognize properly.
But… Western continent people?
-The Radan people don’t seem to be fascinated by magic?
Something begins to mix with the memories that should have been filled with only emotion and gentle sadness.
-Well… Rather than being strange, I resented it because it seemed like something like the priests’ sacred laws. I knew how much asceticism priests go through to gain divine power. Even if it was training, the power they gained through such torture-like asceticism was not something I particularly admired.
My father, who has eyes and a nose bridge similar to mine now, stroked his beard and answered my mother’s question.
Your father was from Ladan?
I had no idea because I had never had a conversation like this in front of them and they never really showed anything about Ladan culture.
Even my father didn’t have any of the physical characteristics or accents that are typical of Ladan people, so I thought he was just unlucky to have the same name as a country from the next continent.
“···It was good to see you·”
The secret of the sudden birth made me laugh, but what’s the big deal? Since I didn’t have much time, I got to know the story that I couldn’t find out, so it was good.
[Is that enough now?]
“Yes, thank you.”
As the thought that I had read my mind right away because we were in contact with each other began to absorb the divinity, the vivid memories that had been unfolding began to gradually blur and turn into a pure white space again. Just before the divinity completely left my body, the thought asked me softly.
[Are your memories from your past life okay?]
“yes·”
It’s not that I don’t want to look back or remember my parents from back then or that I have no regrets. If I had fallen here in an ambiguous state like Siegfried, where it’s hard to tell whether I was possessed or not, I would have wanted to see my parents from my previous life first.
But no matter how bad it was, my life in my previous life has definitely come to an end. If I don’t miss anything, it’s a lie, and if I don’t regret anything, it’s the same, but I did my best back then, so that’s okay. I got revenge somehow in the end.
“Because I’m Eldmia Egai.”
The current me is the son of Radan Egawa and Ebishu Ruina, and a resident of this world. That’s enough.
[I see·]
I felt as if Sanyeom was laughing at my answer, and the white world suddenly became black as if the lights had gone out. At the same time, my body felt heavy and all sorts of sensations came over me.
I left the temple and returned to my body.
“hmm···”
The first thing I felt before I even opened my eyes was the smell.
By the way, didn’t I say that the most sensitive of all senses is the sense of smell? I didn’t know because I wasn’t aware of it before, but I was in a place where there was no smell until just now, and now that I’m here, I know it’s real.
“Hey Eldmia, are you awake?”
I turned my head toward the familiar scents wafting through the soft bedding and saw three familiar faces.
“I feel refreshed. I feel like I woke up from a good night’s sleep.”
“···Haa, okay. If you’re okay, that’s good.·”
Unlike Esmue, who had a worried look on her face, Ashili just smiled slightly and nodded as if she was really used to it. As soon as I saw her, I thought, ‘Maybe I won’t get hit on the back this time?’ and I smiled without realizing it.
I never knew that the small and insignificant anxieties and relief that we feel as mortals could be so precious and welcome.
As I got up and stroked Leica, who was running towards me with a completely recovered appearance, the figure that had been so badly injured disappeared, and Sanyeom, who was sitting on the chair and looking at me, also slowly got up from his seat.
“I was able to help this time, but you have to be careful because once a path is open, it can be opened again at any time.”
If I didn’t know anything, I would have asked how I should be careful, but even though I had left the sacred realm, the knowledge I had gained from Sanyeom-nim remained, so that explanation was enough.
“Suddenly, I have a lot to worry about.”
“They say that if you just get used to it, you’ll get used to it. But for now… I guess the priority is to take measures to prevent the divine from being stimulated.”
In other words, it is a warning to refrain from encountering the remnants of evil spirits.
“I guess I’ll have to look for something else to do for a while.”
“The rational reactions you show often surprise me.”
Did he think I wouldn’t follow your advice? Your eyes widened in surprise, but soon you smiled slightly and nodded.
“Perhaps that is the power that prevents a tragic ending. I have a favor to ask of you later, so please rest a little more and come to the library.”
As soon as he finished speaking, the two people’s gazes turned to Sanyeom-nim, who left the room without any regrets. When they slowly turned back to me, what was in them for some reason was a strong sense of distrust.
“What? Why are you looking at me like that?”
When I, who was habitually nervous, rolled my eyes and asked a question, our eyes crossed for a moment and Asili opened her mouth.
“What are you talking about? In another direction?”
“Ah, that. This time, I almost became something like a half-god or something. If you don’t want that to happen, you should rest for a while without clashing with evil spirits. Now… It feels like a kind of habitual dislocation? So?”
I thought it was a perfect metaphor, but somehow the two people’s gazes became colder and this time Esmue asked back.
“So now… you will voluntarily avoid battle with the Demon King’s army…?”
“Yeah, that’s right. I feel sorry for the people who fight so hard, but… I’m human too, right? I should rest when it’s time to rest, right?”
The purpose of my trip was revenge, but if I suddenly ascend to heaven and live in that creepy feeling that is not me, it would be a complete waste. Of course, that doesn’t mean I’ll be lying in bed all day, but it would be enough to call it rest in relative terms.
“A kind of reorganization”
I thought this was an explanation that would be sympathetic enough, but the two people who heard my answer started glaring at me with their eyes wide open.
“Why, why are you doing that?”
“Really? You’re not going to the front lines?”
“I told you it’s true?”
“How dangerous a situation was it just now that you voluntarily decided to refuse the fight?”
“···Huh?”
What is this?
I had a brief brain freeze, but I was able to quickly understand the situation.
“Do you both think that I am only now saving myself because my life was in dire danger?”
Hey, no way
There’s no way you’d think I was crazy for fighting like that···
“Isn’t that so?”
“Otherwise, there’s no way Eldi would say he’d rest when he’s come all the way to the Demon King.”
···It’s not like there isn’t one·
In the end, I had to explain for a long time that I made this choice because there was a threat other than the threat to my life.