Be Eaten Up with Love

I felt dizzy and fell down to the sofa carelessly. I forced myself to stand up and
pointed at him, “ It's really condescending of you. Wayne, do I need you to
forgive me? Do I shamelessly ask you to forgive me? I hope you never forgive
me as long as you live!"
“Lydia, say that again!” He glared at me as if he would eat me.
I giggled. Looking at his anger from embarrassment, I felt dreary and good!
I looked at his eyes and said, “I need you to forgive......”
He strongly kissed my mouth before I could finish my words.
He pushed me down to the sofa, took off my pants, and put his hands under
without pity...
My humiliating tears instantaneously flew down. No love, no respect! He could
take off my pants any time anywhere to meet his physiological needs just
because there was no love! Because there was no responsibility, he didn’t care
my awkwardness, just left after wearing his pants!
My tears was pouring like levee failure. And I cried and felt extremely sad!
Wayne stopped and wiped out my tears, “Lydia, don’t cry. I am doing just fine,
why are you crying?”
“You wanted me. Why did you let the waiter watch the door? You just want sex
every moment......” I quickly worn my pants and pushed away his hands.
He sighed and sat on the sofa. And he light up a cigarette and smoked.
“I did want to sleep with you. I wanted to make love with you every day when I
was in Japan for a week. I had physiological needs when I saw you wearing sexy
clothes. Lydia, I rarely lose my sense of propriety for a woman all these years. I
disdain to take off pants for sex anywhere except you......”

Those words sounded better than anything sweet I heard.
I silently looked at him and sobbed. He glanced at me and said, “Lydia, I admit, I
am obsessed with your body. I like you when you are fascinating. Be good and I
will keep you forever.”
In the dense smoke, I looked at his hazy face, and such promise made me cry
and laugh!
“Let’s go home, I will take you home.” He put out the cigarette and took me out of
the room.
The waiter at the door noticed that we quickly finished it, he looked at Wayne
several times.
I laughed out.
“Wayne, since it was only ten minutes, will he doubt that you are bad at it? Like
impotence...”
Wayne looked at me as if he smiled or not, “Lydia, I don’t mind to go there again
and I won’t come out until one hour passes. Can you believe?”
I immediately shook my head!
He was kidding. If he really did so, I probably would be faceless to meet others.
I briefly told him that today I went there for drinking with Merlin and we shall went
back home together.
He nodded and said that he would wait in front of the cashier!
I went into the room to pulled out the drunk woman. I held her to move unsteadily
towards the cashier for checking out.
“Hi, $25000 for wine, $2000 for male companions, $27000 in total. Card or
cash?”

“Hum...” I felt a pair of angry eyes staring at me and my spine was cold. I turned
around to smile at Wayne then I bit my teeth, “Card!”
After excessively swiping Richard’s card, I held Merlin and followed Wayne with
fear.
Getting on the car, I quickly went to the back seat to sit with Merlin.
The car steadily drove on the road. Wayne said nothing. My tight heart gradually
got loosened.
After arrival, I helped Merlin to the bed and cover the quilt for her. Then I told
Wayne what happened including the period when she moved to my house.
“Tonight, go to my house!” He proposed.
“OK.” I nodded.
After coming out the rented house, Wayne took me to his house. The
atmosphere strangely became cold.
I grabbed my fingers, wanting to talk but saying nothing when I saw his cold face.
Entering the door, he held me up to the bed in the bedroom before I could stood
steadily.
“Lydia, it is unexpected that you are actually so open-minded. Asking for male
companions to drink together? Hum?”
Hearing it, there was darkness before me. And I felt so wronged when I saw his
angry eyes.
“Aha, I have some reasons, Wayne, let me explain......”
“Take a shower. Explain to me when I finished my work!”

I blushed due to either shyness or anger from Wayne! Compared to the way he
looked sanctimonious, now the way he behaved so indecently was totally
different.
I quickly got up and moved towards the bathroom.
Holding the shower head, I poured the warm water on my body and all fatigue in
the day was washed gradually. I stood in the heat, recalling what Wayne told me
today.
I didn’t deny that something changed inside my heart. I felt happy as well as sad.
It was undoubtedly that Wayne was attractive to me. I stayed with him as if I was
a dry tree in the desert and met the rain. He could bring me the splendid future.
Also, he could bring me the dark hell.