Deranged Writer's Afterword

Thrust

Slash

Peirce

The three basic moves that I learned from that weird beginner's guide all those months ago, it turns out that I hadn’t been doing them properly……so that’s a lot of hours wasted then?

…….

Fuck me.

Right now, I’m even falling behind Lydia….who isn’t even officially part of this training, I was asked to do each of the basic moves….ten thousand times. It’s been a week since then and I haven’t been able to do it.

‘Thump’

I fell to the ground, gasping out for air and trying to calm my heart that threatened to burst from within my chest, sweat covered every inch of my body and it slowly flowed down my body as I struggled to get back on my feet.

‘Sigh’

I turned around to find Luna walking towards me, both her and Rhys had gone back to the cave for something…she would always check on me and I’ve had to hear that disappointed sigh every single time.

“ Pathetic.”, she said, letting Rhys down, he made his way toward me and rubbed himself against my sweat-laden face.

I found Luna’s eyes falling on Lydia who was a few meters away from us, I could see a strange emotion pass through her face. Talking about Lydia…..she started training at the same time as me but she’s much closer to the goal than I am….

Normally, I would act like a baby about all this but….now I can’t help but feel helpless.

…….

Am…..I…talentless?

I’ve gotten everything with so little effort in this life, I’ve taken so many shortcuts….I don’t even have a potential binding me like everyone else….yet I’m still this weak…….fuck.

I can’t question myself now.

All I can do is get up and work…….until I succeed.

That’s the only way.

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Luna’s POV:

It has been a little over a month since their training officially started.

Night had fallen upon us, ushering us into the cave where we were having our dinner. I secretly watched as my daughter ate her food, during the past few days….I’ve been watching her train and she’s obviously got talent….she’s my daughter after all.

No….

I need to stop.

I can’t get close to her.

I had also taken a liking to the small panther, it also seemed to be hiding a lot of talent within itself. I slowly started training it because I couldn’t contain my curiosity…I was surprised when I realized that-

“Mo- Miss Luna ?”

“ What is it ?”, I asked wincing internally.

“ Well….Adam’s still training…..I’m a little worried.”

“ He’ll be fine.”, I said, concentrating on my meal.

“ How about I go check on h-”

‘Sigh’

I got up and started heading back to the designated training grounds to check on the brat.

“ I’ll go check on him….”

I don’t understand why she’s so fond of that man….he’s a walking disaster.

Looking at all his memories, I did initially feel a little pity for him but the world doesn’t need a broken man…..it needs someone strong….and that boy isn’t anywhere close to strong. I wouldn’t have helped him even with the prince’s connection but…..I did decide to train him anyway because I didn’t want her to leave just yet…

I reached the clearing expecting to find him on all fours but it seems that he still hasn’t given up,

‘Hup’

The boy kept on performing the basic moves again and again and silently counted, he didn’t seem to be aware of my presence just yet. I decided to watch him for a few minutes.

‘Hup’

I felt like I was watching a man desperately trying to fight against something…..something that no one could even understand.

‘Thud’

I tried to reach him instinctively as he slipped and fell to the ground even though I was too far away to be able to do anything.

‘I guess I’ll bring him back now…’, I took a step forward but stopped as I witnessed something surprising.

The boy got back on his feet.

‘Hup’

He performed the three basic moves again and proclaimed out loud,

“One.”

………..

To think that he would start over again…..

I watched silently as he performed the set while tears and snot rolled down his face, his body was visibly shaking.

A smile slowly spread across my face, the boy was not what the world needed….but he’s what the world had for now…

………….

I'll have to do my best with what I’ve got.

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