His Beautiful Addiction

Chapter 452  I kissed Xavier

''Ari,'' he called, and she turned to look at him.

Xavier frowned in worry when he saw her pale face and dry lips.

''Ari, what's wrong? '' he asked as he tried to touch her, but she backed away from him.

''Nothing,'' she said; Xavier stared at her for a second, and without warning, he held her hand and touched her forehead.

''You have a fever. '' He said, and she quickly pulled her hand from him;

''I know, I just want to get some drugs at the pharmacy. ''

''Let me take you.'' Xavier offered, and she shook her head; ''I can drive myself. ''

''Maria, you're ill. Can you not just be stubborn now? '' he scolded and Ari calmed down instantly. Seeing she was calm, he took her hand and led her to his car; opening the passenger's seat for her.

The drive to the hospital was quiet, as no one said a word. When they got to the hospital, Ari was taken for tests while Xavier waited outside for her.

The doctor came out and spoke to him briefly before letting him into her ward.

''You have a fever and common cold,'' Xavier said as he walked to where she lay on the bed. The doctor prescribed some medicines, we'll pick them up from the pharmacy on our way out.

Ari sat up on the bed; ''So, we can go now?'' she asked, and he nodded;

''yeah, he said we can leave.''

Ari nodded and stood up from the bed, and they went to the pharmacy to get the medicine before going home.

''Thank you for today. '' Ari said as she took the medicine bag and stepped out of the car without waiting for Xavier's reply. Xavier came out immediately and followed her. Holding her hand, he stopped her in her tracks.

''Ari… '' he called. She didn't move but didn't turn around either. Xavier said nothing, but just when Ari wanted to walk away, he hugged her from behind.

''I'm sorry for whatever I did. Can we please go back to how we used to be?'' Xavier spoke tenderly, his head buried in her neck.

Ari shut her eyes and sighed. He was breaking down her walls, and she could not risk making any mistakes again. She tried to pull away from him, but Xavier held her tight;

''I haven't been able to think of anything else recently, Ari, please… ''

''Xavier, I can't. I can't do this, not with you,'' she said and turned around so she could look at him.

''I'm falling for you, Xavier. I'm falling in love with you, and I know if I keep being around you, I won't be able to stop myself; '' Ari spoke. She was teary now.

''It's easy for you to be around someone and not feel anything deep for the person, but it's not the same for me. I don't know how I got here, but I'm here now, and I've been trying to hide it for a long time, but that day… ''

She paused; ''That day, I don't know what happened, and I kissed you. I shouldn't have. I knew I shouldn't have done that, but I did. And now it's harder for me. So please, please just let me be. ''

''I think I'm falling for you too, Ari. I haven't felt this way about anyone before. '' Xavier said, as he stared at her passionately.

Ari laughed when she heard him. ''Xavier, I wish I could believe you, but I can't. I cannot because everyone cannot be lying, you know. And if I let myself feel this, I would get hurt and I would have myself to blame.''

Xavier clutched his hair as he sighed; ''I know there are a thousand things out there about me, but please give me a chance. I cannot promise I would be the best, but I can promise never to hurt you. ''

Ari shook her head, as a tear dropped from her eyes;

''I'm sorry, Xavier, I can't. ''

With that, she turned and ran into her house. Leaving Xavier standing looking downtrodden.

It was at that moment Xavier regretted the life he lived. He never thought that one day he would feel so much passion for someone, and not be able to express it. He wished she could see his heart and see how much he meant every word he said.

…

Ari cried herself to sleep after taking her medication. She did not know when she slept; she only woke up the next morning a few minutes past ten to the ringing of her phone.

It was Lu on the line;

''hey,'' she said sleepily as she sat up on the bed. She touched her head and her temperature had reduced.

''I'm good. How are you doing?''

Ari smiled; she had not told Lu that she kissed Xavier. Lu had always maintained she was going to fall for Xavier, and she had refused. She thought she was strong, but it seems she was not strong at all.

''I kissed Xavier. '' Ari said, and Lu's eyes widened in surprise.

''Wait, you mean Xavier kissed you? '' she asked, to be sure of what she just heard.

''No, I kissed him. I had been trying to control myself around him. I thought I could, but that day he was so close, and I couldn't stop myself.''

Lu was quiet. She knew it was a serious matter, so she didn't even make a joke out of it.

''What did he do? Did he kiss you back?''

Ari nodded; ''yeah he did, but I regained my senses and ran out of the house. Lu, I regret having that one-night stand. I wish I can go back to that day, and instead of going to the club, I would go to the church and pray. ''

Lu laughed at her words; ''It's okay, don't beat up yourself over spilled milk. What has happened has happened, and you can't change it. So what did he say after that?''

Ari sighed; ''He said he was also having feelings for me, but you know who he is. A playboy can say anything. ''