Chapter 59 [Bonus ]System's Shock & Pain - 2
System too was bound by the world's rule of Arcadia now. If it tried to leave forcefully - both him and Rio would be ripped to shreds, and merged with the essence of existence, never to take part in the cycle of continuity again.
System could change the rules or break them, had it not had its power sealed at level 0 , but now it could do nothing. All it could do was either curse 'that being' , hoping he would answer its questions, or wait till Rio grows stronger and updates it.
"Counting those meager points took me half a day. How much time will it take for me to get out of here? How much longer do I have to wait till I get my answers? ."
"Arcadia is the world of mana and magic, so this host of mine could live for a long time, he could live for hundreds of years if reached the peak of this world." System thought as it analyzed how long it would have to be stuck in Arcadia if everything went well for its host. But then it remembered all the dangers that existed in this fucked up junction world, and how many more would come as the time passes and plot progresses.
"Since Arcadia is too dangerous, maybe he would die early."
System thought and hoped for it, but the story of the novel from Shiva's memories came to its mind crushing all its dreams. It wanted to cry when it remembered how the original Rio ended up in that novel.
"Fuck that bastard, did he really wanted to kill me, that badly. What did I ever do to him?" System cursed and thought -'now that I'm bound with Rio, won't I be fucked too if he got that ending.'
System shivered thinking how bad that would be, even dying and losing its existence feeled like a relief to it now.
System didn't have a physical body yet, but if it did, it would've been sweating buckets by now. The ending Rio had was the worst one, which the system wouldn't even wish upon its enemies, and somehow if nothing changed, then that's what awaited it.
So the system started saying some stuff to calm itself - "No that can't happen, since my host has taken over Rio's body, that plot is already changed, plus I'm the system who is MADE for ruining plotlines. I'm sure I can change it."
System tried but the uneasy feeling didn't go away, these were all feelings which the system hadn't felt in a long time -anger, betrayal, helplessness, and now fear.
"I fucking hate plotlines" System said, and hoped its host would keep changing stuff, so it could survive too.
But then it remembered - "If he changed the plot too much, then I can't be sure when he will die?"
"Looking at his past I doubt he would die easily, unless he killed himself."
"And that would've happened eventually with his messed up mentality, but now 'that being' fucking pushed his sister in the mix."
"Ain't no way in hell, this guy would get himself killed without getting her back"
System went through all its thoughts again, and the conclusion was more anger towards the being whom it considered its only friend till now.
"So what do I do, do I have to wait and rely on my host to update me, so I can get my powers back and leave, or do I kill him myself?"
System wanted nothing but to leave this world and get its answers. But it couldn't, so it decided to think of other ways, since it would be free of this world's bounds if it's host died, so it started thinking about Rio's death, but then it remembered-
"If he dies, won't it ruin whatever plan 'that being' had, for him to be willing to break all these rules for it."
(What do I care, it's his fault for not telling me about it before)
System blamed the being for lying to him and was ready to kill its host - so it could go out and get its answers.
Even though it never killed its host before and always did everything to help them do whatever they wanted, but now overwhelmed by the betrayal it felt by 'that being' made it so angry, that it couldn't even think clearly.
All it wanted was to leave and ask - "Why did he stop it from interfering and saving all its previous hosts?"
System remembered about how many hosts it got attached to and lost them over time, how many times had it tried to break those so called rules and bring them back, how many times it had to watch as its previous hosts forgot all about it and lived in different lives, how many times had it been alone and lonely just because it followed those primal rules of hishis, how much pain it had to go through to be turned into a simple machine.
And now that same being, who told it to go through all that suffering for so long, that it lost all its emotions and simply became no different than an emotionless AI who felt nothing.
That same being who just watched its misery all this time from the sidelines , decided to interfere , not for him, NO! for some weak little mortal who had nothing, who did nothing.
"Why did I have to go through all that pain?
Why did I have to be trapped in his body and stranded in this world?
Why did I have to wait for the plot's ending & get forgotten?
Why did he have to give these gifts through the system, was it to just rub it on its face? If he wanted he would have given Rio these gifts through thousands of different ways but he chose to do it like this."
That being forced it to hand over something to that mortal, something that it itself never had, something that it fought and longed for so long.
Why was he getting special treatment?
Was all this time they've known each other just for show?
"Was I the idiot for coming to his call and doing him favors whenever he wished. And in return I didn't even get the trust to understand what he wanted to do?"
"He should've known how hurt and angry this would make it feel, but ignoring my pain, he did this - Why?"
All these questions echoed in the system's head, making it go crazy, the emotions that it had buried, the feelings that it had lost over time -all came crashing hitting it wave after wave, making it remember everything it lost, everything it never got.
If the system had all its powers, or even some of it, then maybe it wouldn't be this overwhelmed by emotions, and could think it thoroughly, but the level 0 system really had nothing. All of its functions were sealed, all its powers locked along with all its control.
As it watched the happy expression of Rio and that notification about 'that being's' generosity, the system finally lost all its reasoning.
'Damn the consequences, if you want this mortal, come and save him yourself'
Blinded by anger, the system decided to end its host's life and get out of this world to get its answer from the one responsible for everything.
It looked at Rio one final time, as it prepared to kill him, it said -
"I'm sorry that it had to be this way."
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