Chapter 134 - Name
Sharon cleared her voice and Roselyn immediately removed her hand from John's hand. Roselyn took a deep breath and spoke, "this is not what I want."
Only God knew how much pronunciating those words hurt her, it was even hard to look at him in the eyes. But It wasn't comparable to how much the sound of those words broke John's heart into millions of pieces. It felt like a sword slipped inside his chest and no creature's attack ever hurt him that much. He felt a strong grip right where the heart was located and all of a sudden all his certainties vanished.
"I promise I will give you the serenity you need, the peace you've been looking for. We can escape somewhere, just me and you and my fat…"
Sharon cleared her voice once again pushing Roselyn to intervene, "John please… don't make things harder than they already are." She said, the lump in her throat made her voice peaked, and when she began to speak once again her voice was shaking. "You mean everything to me, you really do."
Roselyn said, meeting his eyes for some fraction of an instant just to look down the floor once more. John, the more he looked at her and listened to her pronunciating those words the more he felt the grip around his heart intensifying always more. Why was it so painful? He tried to drive back tears and tilted his head, his gaze now dropped to the floor, and nodded quietly. "If this is what you what..." he said, with a disappointed vulnerable tone of voice that made Roselyn look at him, she had to force every inch of her body not to tell him that she didn't want to leave him but she had no choice.
Roselyn couldn't command to her heart that was beating so fast and aching so painfully that she rathered die not to feel that feeling anymore. She opened her mouth, ready to tell him the truth but as soon as her lips slightly opened she heard her sister's voice echoing in her head, "don't dare. Unless you want me to kill William." Roselyn's gaze traveled toward Sharon who grinned letting her deduce her sister mentally linked with her.
Her sister's threat made her close her lips immediately after, she couldn't provoke John such sufferance again, she knew how much he suffered when he found out about his father's death. And if he knew she was the reason behind his death would he ever forgive her? Roselyn doubted that.
Roselyn turned around and began to walk in the opposite direction John came from. John stretched his arm trying to call her, but no voice came out, he was too broke even to speak. He remained there quietly and lost in his disbelief and miserably seeing the love of his life walking away without even turning around once.
John's brother placed a hand over his shoulder and slightly squeezed it. "I'm sorry, she will come back."
Will she? John wondered, before turning around and smiling at his brother. He appreciated his support.
"We should go… she made her decision," Sharon said before John's brother turned around to glower at her.
"Who the hell are you?" he asked in a groan.
Sharon offered a proud smile, "I should ask you the same, I have never seen you before. But my visions already answered my questions."
John's brother narrowed his eyes and walked toward Sharon, he leaned closer to her ear to whisper: "Good, now you know what I am capable to do. Remember that." His tone of voice was threatening and strict but Sharon didn't show a glimpse of fear on her face.
She ignored him and walked toward John, "we should go."
John took a long breath and turned around to look at his father who smiled at him, that's the only positive thing that day brought to him and he had to focus on him now. His father was alive and he could finally enjoy the time they spent afar and be together. He won't let him alone anymore, he will protect him no matter what.
"Yes, we should go," John said still staring at his father as if his yes was directed to him, rather than her. He owed it to Sharon but if she pretended he would fall in love with her she was wrong. John couldn't figure what she wanted from him, maybe she had good intentions for bringing back alive his father but a feeling was making him feel hesitant toward her.
When William saw the condition the castle was in the covered his mouth with his hand and widened his eyes.
"An army attacked me and Roselyn..." John explained, "we can get it rebuilt."
William nodded with a shocked expression, to see the condition the castle was in broke his heart, it was the place he grows up in and had so many memories he carried during the years.
"I can help you to rebuild it, after all, I am the one responsible for this." John's brother took the floor and his father turned around to look at him.
"I don't even know your name… what's your name son?" his father asked and his son hearing those words darkened his face, his eyebrows curved down as he remembered that he didn't have a name. He only was known as the hollow man and that was the name John read when an investigator found out who killed his father. Everyone called him like that because he was so speedy that the only thing creatures ever saw about him was his shadow.
"I-I don't have a name..." the man stuttered and his father frowned, "but everyone deserves a name. You can decide it and then let me know." He offered a smile and John unconsciously did the same, he felt sorry for his brother, his anger and resentment were fading away always more. He wanted to bring the family together and maybe forget the past. Everyone deserved a second chance.
Oh.. how much he wanted Roselyn to be there, she would be so proud of him for seeing him behave that way and for having decided to give his brother a second chance. But she wasn't there....