Chapter 80 - 79
THIRD PERSON POINT OF VIEW:
'No... That would never happen. Tristan told me I should always remember that he loves me and that he'd be better next time. There's a next time, and he loves me. There's no way he wouldn't show up,' Justin thought as he anxiously waited for his alpha.
He took a deep breath and checked the time on his phone again.
'It's already 4:50. He should be here soon. I should go and order drinks for us,' he thought.
He stood up and headed to the counter to order their drinks. After that, he headed back to the table as he waited for his order.
Meanwhile, thirty minutes before Justin ordered at the cafe, the alpha who was on his way there was stuck on a traffic jam because there was a collision of cars nearby. It was a common occurrence, knowing how slippery roads can be in this kind of season.
He spotted a flower shop on the sidewalk and decided to stop by for a bit to buy a bouquet of flowers for Justin while waiting for the problem to be resolved.
"There isn't much problem with the cars, so they'd probably resolve it soon. I think it was just scratched..." he muttered to himself as he stretched his neck, trying to see what the situation was.
The position of his car was great because it was by the sidewalk. He could just move it a bit to the side and stop by at the flower shop.
He got off from his car and hurriedly went inside. His heart was racing and his hands were sweating, perhaps because of excitement and happiness.
'What should I get?' Tristan thought to himself as he looked at the variety of flowers in front of him.
All of them came in different colors, but none of them really struck him.
'I don't really know much about flowers, but I remember that bouquet I bought for our monthsary. I really looked it up on the internet because I wanted to give him something meaningful. It was baby's breath. It means everlasting love and purity. It's a shame their dogs kept barking at me, which caused me to ruin the entire bouquet. Still, I should get the same flowers for him,' he thought as he looked around at the flower shop more.
"May I get a bouquet of white baby's breath?" He asked as he smiled at the florist.
The florist's cheeks turned bright red from seeing Tristan's smile.
"Is... Is it for a lover?" she asked as she headed to where the baby's breaths are. "Yes, it's for him. We're meeting up today, you see," he said and giggled, feeling happy about seeing Justin again after quite a while. "Then, you're in luck, sir. We only have a few more of those because it's hard taking care of them during this season. I think red baby's breath would be more suited for romance. Would you like to get them in that color?" she asked as she turned her head to face Tristan. "Ah, no. I'll get white ones. White suits him better," he smiled.
The florist began making his bouquet and after a few minutes, she was already done.
"Here you go, sir. Would you like to put a note on the bouquet?" she asked as she handed the bouquet to the alpha. "Yes please, but I'd like to write it myself. Would that be alright?" he asked as he took the bouquet from her hands. "Of course. Please wait for a while," she said and took a card and a pen on a drawer. "Here you go, sir," she said as she handed them to Tristan.
'What should I write?' he thought as he held the pen in a writing position. He thought hard about what he should write, and finally thought of something.
'Ah, I know!' he thought as the idea popped into his head. He started writing it down carefully so as to not make it messy and for it to look nice.
"Please come again, sir!" The florist said as Tristan walked out of the shop.
Holding the bouquet on his right hand, he lifted his left hand to check the time once again.
"4:30," he said and raised his head as he lowered his hand. He headed back to his car, and thankfully, the car accident was already resolved by the time he finished his business at the flower shop.
He put the bouquet next to him as soon as he went inside the car. He then drove to the cafe where they promised to meet.
As he was driving, he couldn't help but feel really happy. He was happy that he could finally see Justin again. He was happy that he finally found someone who truly cares about him. He was happy that he was given another chance to hold on to their relationship.
There were a lot of things that he could name why he felt so happy that he kept smiling as he drove there.
But something happened.
As he drove, he felt his hands slowly sweating, and his heartbeat started racing so fast once again. He started having a hard time breathing, and he could feel his body slowly heating up.
It was the time of the year where he felt the weakest, because he knew he couldn't do anything about that kind of condition.
He was in a rut.
"Fuck, I should have known this would happen..." he said as he panted. He stopped the car on the side for a bit and rested his head on the steering wheel.
His body felt hot and heavy. His mind started to get filled with dirty images where he was touching Justin, which caused him to get an erection.
"Sh... Shit..." he panted. "My suppressant..." He didn't bring any tablet suppressants with him, so the only thing he had was a syringe and the liquid suppressant that has better effects than a tablet. His hands fumbled on the glove compartment, searching for his syringe and suppressant.
When he finally found them, he immediately lifted his head up and looked at the bottle where the liquid was.
His face turned pale and his heart felt like it was going to stop.
The bottle that contained the suppressant has a crack, and all of its content was already gone.
"Goddamn it..." he cussed and bit his lower lip.
'There's no way I could drive in my condition right now. I might just as well kill myself and other people if that's what I'm going to do. I'll certainly cause a car accident if I drive,' he thought as he leaned his back against his seat.
'There's a pharmacy a few hundreds of meters from here, and it's also close to the cafe where we're going to meet. After I go to the pharmacy, the suppressant would take a few minutes until it would take effect, so it would still be a bad option to come back to my car. I should just run to the cafe, then,' he said, trying to calculate how he would get to Justin.
It was already 4:40 p.m. and he only has 20 minutes left until their meet up time.
'I have to hurry,' he thought as he grabbed the bouquet and struggled to get out of his car.
The pheromones that he had a hundred percent of control over when he's not in a rut was now leaking out without any restraint.
He couldn't control them anymore.
Because he was a dominant alpha, even betas could smell his pheromones. As he walked on the sidewalk, the people he passed by instinctively stepped away from him.
He didn't care about how he's causing trouble for the people around him. He didn't care how cold it was outside. All he cared about was meeting up with Justin.
He tried running to the pharmacy, but the best he could do was walk a bit faster than his pace earlier.
"Hey, move!"
Tristan kept panting as he forced himself to move even a little bit faster. He was running out of time. The fear that Justin might leave him if he doesn't get there on time made him feel nervous.
He even felt shittier because every time he looks at the sidewalk to look for an empty cab, he couldn't find any because it was already rush hour.
He felt like the dieties were messing with him.
'Fuck suppressants. I have to at least get there on time,' he thought, feeling desperate to the point where he was willing to give up on stopping by at the pharmacy taking his suppressants.
He was more afraid of losing Justin than having sex with him while he's in a rut. He was at least confident that he wouldn't hurt him when they do it even if he was in that kind of state, but him arriving on time was something he wasn't confident about.
"Hey, I said move! Move!"
As if the world moved slower, the way things around Tristan began to move slowly as he turned his head to look at the person who kept yelling so loudly.
It was someone who was riding a motorcycle that seemed to be out of control because of the slippery sidewalk.
It wasn't even the right place to ride his motorcycle, but it seemed like the driver took the sidewalk to get to his destination faster.
Everything was in slow motion for him, but at that moment, he also couldn't move quickly. Not just because he was in a rut, but also because Tristan, himself, was also moving in slow motion.
"Haa... Haaa..." he panted as his vision started getting blurry.
He moved his head sideways and realized that he was lying on the ground. One second ago, he was still standing but now, he couldn't even seem to move the rest of his body, but his grip on the bouquet was still tight.
He felt like his entire world just collapsed upon realizing that he wouldn't make it on time.
Justin's face flashed on his mind as his heart ached while thinking about the consequence of him not being able to make it there.
He knew he'd lose him.
"J... Justin..." he whispered his omega's name before finally losing consciousness.
'I'll make it up to you for the rest of my life. Will you spend a lifetime with me?' said the note that was on the bouquet.