Love Worth Fighting For

Chapter 14: Secretary for Christian

Luxembourg, 3.00 AM.

“Suri... Suri! Wait Suriii!!!”

Christian screams fill the entire room which is pitch black, with his body drenched in sweat. Christian sits breathlessly staring at the walls of his room.

Christian has spent more than a thousand nights with recurring nightmares. In that dream Suri looked beautiful and cheerful as usual until finally Suri fell in a hole which turned out to be quicksand, not a single creature managed to get out of the quicksand including Suri who instantly disappeared right in front of Christian’s eyes.

Despite having undergone various therapy sessions, this terrible dream always appears in Christian’s sleep and for that reason Christian’s warm attitude disappears. Replaced with the figure of Christian who is always cold to anyone in his ex-lover, Dasha. Their only physical touch was when they were in bed, nothing else. Both of them seem to live in their respective worlds when they are eating together, there is no warm and romantic conversation like other couples.

The only reason Dasha stays by Christian’s side is because she doesn’t want to lose the privileges she has as a Christian Clarke woman, no other young man can compare to Christian today. That’s why Dasha persisted in her bland relationship with Christian until Christian finally broke off the long-standing relationship.

“How long are you going to torture me like this, Suri? Why do you always appear in my dreams? How much hate do you have for me? Come home Suri, I miss you. So does Mommy and Daddy.”

.....

Uncomfortable with his body sticky with sweat, Christian slowly gets up from his big bed and walks towards the bathroom without turning on the light in his room which is still pitch black. The only light in the room was a ray of light that crept in from under the bedroom door.

Taking a shower when everyone is fast asleep is Christian’s new habit for the past three years, usually Christian will work after bathing until it’s time to go to the office. Christian’s lifestyle is completely destroyed.

“W-what are you doing, sir?” Kainer, who woke up wanting to get a drink in the pantry, was surprised to see Christian standing at the large window at the end of the hall.

“Staring at the moon,” Christian replies curtly.

“But the day is already...”

“I just woke up, Kainer.”

Kainer was silent, she slowly walked towards Christian who still hadn’t changed his position.

“That nightmare again, sir?”

Christian smiles. “You really are very understanding, Kainer.”

“Should I reschedule you to go see...”

“No, I don’t need therapists. It’s useless, after all the dreams come back again and again,” Christian said hoarsely.

silence.

Kainer couldn’t speak, she didn’t know what to say. Kainer, who knows how hard Christian struggles to be free from his guilt about Suri’s disappearance, is always afraid to speak if Christian is in a situation like this.

“Asher called...”

“Asher?”

Christian nodded. “He reminded me to go home to celebrate Mommy and Daddy’s wedding anniversary, I couldn’t possibly go home. It didn’t feel strong if I had to go back to that house, a house full of memories of Suri. I would be crazy if I was in that house and Asher seems to know this, so that bastard keeps inviting me every year to come. Asher really wants to take my position as Jackson Clarke’s first child,” Christian said in a trembling voice, his anger at Asher slowly making Christian hate his adopted brother .

“I think it’s time you recruited a secretary, sir.”

With a quick motion Christian turns his face towards Kainer.

“Secretary?”

Kainer nodded slowly. “Yes sir, if you have a secretary then you can ask her to attend this kind of event without you being involved. Since I honestly wouldn’t want to leave you, I’d rather continue to work until morning by your side.”

Christian fell silent, his intelligent brain digesting the words Kainer had just said.

“Okay, then find me a secretary. But...”

“But what, sir?”

“Make sure my future secretary isn’t the kind of disgusting seductive woman who only relies on her face and body to get my attention, I want you to find a secretary who won’t be tempted by my good looks and definitely a woman who doesn’t cry easily. I don’t want to have a crybaby secretary, because only Suri I let cry in my arms.”

Kainer nods again, trying to be calm on the terms Christian has given that are a bit difficult to do. Not long after, Kainer immediately left Christian who still wanted to stare at the moon alone.

“Suri Mireya... my lovely sister, I know right now you must be suffering from being out there alone. Be patient a little longer Suri... i will find you.. hold on Suri, i will pick you up, soon.”

Continued.