Chapter 61 - Caring Brother
-Beijing, China-
Zhang Sifeng entered the infirmary while Zhang Yushen was being treated at their uncle's hospital.
Sifeng saw his brother sitting on the back of the bed. Beside Yushen, there was also their Papa.
Master Zhang is feeding Yushen at the moment. At first, Yushen refused. However, Mr. Zhang insisted because he wanted to be able to feed Yushen. In the end, Yushen complied.
Sifeng was still watching Papa and his brother from the doorway. Sifeng smiled at the familiarity of Master Zhang and Yushen.
It felt like it had been a long, long time since Sifeng had not seen them. Since the Zhang Sifeng Identity Scandal that caused the share price in Zhang Group to drop rapidly, Sifeng has been avoiding the Zhang family ever since. Now, Sifeng was embarrassed to meet Papa and his brother.
Sifeng just stood there leaning against the door frame. Sifeng's hands crossed. For a few minutes, Sifeng only watched Master Zhang and Yushen from afar. Sifeng felt a bit awkward to meet them.
"A-Feng! Are you awake, My Son?" asked Mr Zhang after realizing that Sifeng was at the door side, not knowing since when.
Master Zhang rose to his feet. He walked over to Sifeng and hugged his youngest son tightly. Master Zhang really misses his youngest son.
Master Zhang's current feelings were more or less the same as Lian Ji's. They regretted having neglected Sifeng. They also felt guilty for Sifeng's bad luck because of the scandal. Master Zhang even blamed himself for Sifeng being seriously ill these few days.
So, Master Zhang even wanted to cry when he saw that Sifeng was fine.
"Papa is very worried about you, A-Feng," said Master Zhang, still hugging Sifeng.
"I'm fine, Papa. Calm down!" Sifeng said. He returned his father's hug.
A moment later, Sifeng's gaze fell on Yushen. Yushen looked so angry right now. In fact, Yushen turned away and didn't want to look at Sifeng.
"Okay! Papa will go to see the doctor first. Papa hope you guys make up quickly!" said Mr. Zhang. Mr. Zhang knew very well that Yushen and Sifeng had been having disagreements these past few weeks.
Master Zhang whispered something to Sifeng.
"Listen Papa, A-Feng! Your brother is more stubborn than you, he also has high self-esteem. So Papa suggest you apologize to A-Shun first!" Mr Zhang suggested.
Master Zhang gently patted Sifeng's shoulder, before finally Master Zhang left the room.
Sifeng turned around just to see if his Papa had moved away or not.
Sifeng closed the door to the infirmary after his father left. Sifeng turned and looked at Yushen with a sad look. He looked so sorry for accusing Yushen.
Slowly, Sifeng walked closer to Yushen's bed. He hasn't spoken. Sifeng mustered up all his courage first to apologize to Yushen.
However, as Sifeng drew closer to the bed, Yushen turned his head away. Yushen looked straight out the window.
There was silence for a while, until Sifeng ventured to start a conversation.
"Hi, Yu Gege! How are you doing now? Are you all right?" Sifeng asked. Sounds very awkward.
Yushen didn't answer. Yushen was still looking out the window. In fact, Sifeng was already nearby. However, Yushen didn't seem to see Sifeng's existence. Yushen still ignored Sifeng's existence.
"Do you know, Gege? In fact, even a god has made mistakes. Here I am only a human. A human who never escapes mistakes and sins. Will you forgive me, Brother?" Sifeng again expressed an apology.
However, Yushen still didn't answer. He was still staring out the window.
"Okay, it's true that my mistakes don't deserve to be forgiven immediately. But believe me, I'm really sorry, Gege! I shouldn't accuse you like that. I realize I was wrong. So, please forgive me, okay?" Sifeng begged. Sifeng couldn't contain his longing for Yushen. Sifeng hugged his brother from behind.
However, Yushen did not respond at all. Yushen still turned his back on Sifeng and looked out the window. Yushen would stare anywhere, as long as he didn't stare at Sifeng. Yushen was lazy to face his stupid little brother, he thought.
Sifeng didn't stop saying the word 'sorry'. The word was even like a spell Sifeng had chanted.
"Sorry! I'm sorry for my stupidity, Gege! I'm also sorry that I caused you to think and ended up getting hurt. You can hit me, Gege! But, please don't ignore me!" asked Sifeng, in a low voice.
*Gege = brother
Yushen hasn't responded yet. He instead nudged Sifeng in the stomach who was presumptuous of hugging him. Sifeng groaned in pain, but Yushen didn't care at all.
Yushen turned around and found Sifeng who was still holding his stomach.
"Don't overdo it! I elbowed you not too hard just now!" Yushen snapped, annoyed at Sifeng's overreaction.
Sifeng smiled because he had not heard his brother's shout for a long time.
"So, have you forgiven me, Gege?!" Sifeng asked again.
"No way! I'm tired of your childish behavior, Zhang Sifeng! Remember, you're almost twenty-three years old, but you've never behaved an adult in the slightest!" There was a hint of disappointment in Yushen's words.
Sifeng took a deep breath and walked towards the window. His eyes started to glaze over.
"I couldn't control my emotions at that time, Gege. I was so shocked that my own mother didn't want me, Yu Ge. At that time, Madam Wang came showering me with love that I never received before. Therefore, I just believed when she said You're the one behind the scandal, Yu Ge." Sifeng told the story.
Yushen was silent for a moment, digesting every word his brother said. The disappointment that was earlier seemed to have disappeared now.
"What do you mean, A-Feng? Your mother doesn't want you?" Yushen repeated his sister's words earlier, as if she couldn't believe it.
"That's right, Yu Ge. That Madam Haruhi never wanted me to be in this world! She was even willing to exchange me for some money! How ridiculous my life is, isn't it?" Sifeng spoke quietly.
Zhang Sifeng burst into tears in his smile. He couldn't hide that fact anymore. His brother should also know how pathetic his life is. It's not that Sifeng needs to be pitied, but Sifeng needs a place to lean on right now.
Sifeng looked up to hold back his tears.
"Life is really sad, isn't it, Yu Ge?" Sifeng muttered.
Yushen couldn't bear to see his brother sad. Yushen slowly got up from his bed and walked over to Sifeng. Apparently, it wasn't Sifeng's fault entirely. Sifeng was just a pitiful child and was taken advantage of by Madam Wang.
When he was behind Sifeng, Yushen grabbed Sifeng's shoulder to look at him.
"You still have me, Papa, Lian Jiejie and others, A-Feng. You're not alone, My Little Brother. My birth mother also died long ago even when I was 10 years old." Yushen spoke.
Yushen patted Sifeng on the cheek a few times. Yushen really couldn't bear to see Sifeng slumped like that. So, Yushen wanted to protect his little brother even more.
"I can't be okay like you, Yu Gege. I feel like I'm useless in this world. In fact, my birth mother doesn't want me to exist," Sifeng said. Sifeng closed his eyes. His eyes stung from holding back the tears from falling.
Yushen pulled his brother's head against his broad chest. Yushen gently stroked Sifeng's head. Looks like they haven't been this close in a long time. Needless to say, Yushen actually misses Sifeng too. They have been fighting for almost a month and have not spoken to each other. Yushen is sick, and Sifeng is hiding somewhere.
Silence for a moment. There was nothing to say between Yushen and Sifeng. They do miss each other. They feel happy when they are at a time like this. A time where they support each other. I wish they could stop time right now.
Sifeng looked up. Then, he said, "I don't have much time, Yu Gege?"
Hearing the ambiguous sentence, Yushen's reflex pushed Sifeng until Sifeng fell to the ground.
"W-what are you saying, huh? I don't like you saying that kind of thing, A-Feng!" Yushen snapped, panicked. He was afraid that his brother had found out about the '18 month life'.
Sifeng just smiled guiltily.
"I haven't finished talking yet, Lao Yu! I don't have much time, I want to go to the restroom, my dear Brother. Wuahahaha ...." Sifeng laughed afterwards. He felt he had succeeded in toying with Yushen.
Yushen glared at Sifeng's follow-up. Just for that, you speak as dramatic as earlier, Sifeng? Really, you are really good at stirring up Yushen and Lian Ji's emotions, Sifeng!
Then, Sifeng just left his brother who was still in a panic, because of what Sifeng said that Sifeng didn't have much time left.
"A-Feng! You really are stupid!!" Yushen snapped, annoyed. Yushen had even clenched his fists at this point. Yushen felt that he wanted to punch his little brother.
To be continued ....