My Unconventional Lover: Seeing A Different World

256 Upgrade Yourself If You Don’t Want To Drag Her Down

(Tom’s PoV)

As expected of Siji! Only he could reply with that kind of answer casually to a powerful astral beings.

I burst out of laughing for a second before I closed my mouth quickly. It was an irony; asking an evil creature whether he had been to heaven before? Wicked thought, Siji, but I liked it!

The creature appeared stunned with Siji’s response and I could see his body was trembling slightly, but I didn’t know whether it was because of anger or something else.

“Your mouth is still as sharp as ever. Why did I agree to train any of your men before?” The huge creature sighed as his body reverted back to his human form.

“You know very well why.” Siji smirked. “After you, General.” Siji turned his body and tore open the space in front of him. He beckoned at me politely, truly not like himself.

I waved cheekily at the man who was watching us helplessly. Seeing their interaction, I knew that these two must have history between them. Most importantly, Siji had the upper hand in their relationship.

As expected of the Advisor of the White Army. He must be strong enough to be able to control that kind of powerful entity.

Siji sent me to the place where he usually trained me. It didn’t take long before Siji came and asked me to sit cross-legged face-to-face. The atmosphere was unusually tense. Did something happen? He must have a brief talk with the King. Otherwise, why did he become so serious suddenly?

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“General, I have never questioned you after you returned from your practice session. But, this time, it’s different. You’ve done your best in controlling your emotion and strength, and I have nothing to teach you anymore. And, meeting that old fellow is my last training for you. Hopefully you have learned something from him.” Siji started.

I did. I learned something and it was embarrassing to admit it -at least, it was for me.

Siji seemed to catch on the feeling I was trying to hide behind my poker face. He sighed. “That fellow might speak a little too blunt, or vulgar, or even spout unnecessary things. He might even sound righteous when he said those things, and for some people, it can be considered as good lesson, but I really hope you got the essence of this training. The way you are now is great but after the upgrading, you will become better. You don’t want to drag her down, right? Then, upgrade yourself.”

Despite having a war with myself, somehow I could still find myself commenting on the relationship between Siji and that odd King. Siji seemed to know him well, then it should mean that the both of them had known each other for a very long time. I was curious, but I realized it was not the time for me to mind other things.

Siji sighed. “Tom, have you ever heard about how people reached the peak of their spiritual power by meditating? They went into seclusion and meditated for months, even years. They detached themselves from any worldly desire. Do you know what happened to them?”

Of course, I know. “They became big shots, right?”

“And, do you think you are any different from them? I don’t mean to get involved with your personal relationship, but... I think it is time for you to realize that you are entirely different than Jane. Not that she doesn’t need to hold back, but the amount of power that the both of you possess is like a vast ocean and a sea. It looks the same but different. Do you understand?” Siji looked helpless and I couldn’t help but think that he was right.

I was too ignorant with my own power. I thought that I had tried my best to improve myself, that I didn’t want to be a burden to her. Yet, I was too arrogant to admit that my desire for Jane was a huge obstacle for the both of us.

I had already sensed that Siji put his nose too much in my relationship with Jane and honestly, I didn’t feel good about it. However, after knowing the reason why he had done so, I was glad that I didn’t confront about it to him.

I even went as far as thinking that Siji might have feelings towards Jane and I was ready to fight with him about it -since having Tom around us was more than enough and I didn’t want any other men to stick themselves to Jane. Fortunately, he was a pure Advisor who only thought about the well-being of us and the army.

But again, hearing him blantantly saying that I still had one big issue to solve and it related to my relationship with Jane made me think hard.

Should I distance myself from Jane? or should I just ignore it since Jane was powerful enough and I was more than capable to elicit the true power of the army now?

Probably sensing my dilemma, Siji sighed and my attention went back to him. “Upgrade yourself if you don’t want to drag her down.” He said before he got up and disappeared, leaving me dumbfounded with his reaction and the hint of disappointment in his voice.

I tried so hard to think about it. What came into my mind was my conversation with the lustful devil, about how they would feed on human energy of lust when humans were being intimate to each other. Only the sacred marriage could prevent them from feeding on humans energy, thus preventing them from dying embarrassingly because of exhaustion from having too much sex.

Then, what about Jane and me?

Only after pondering for a while that I finally understood and face-palmed myself. Was my desire that big towards her that I forgot we were not tied down by the thing called ‘marriage’? It may sound so simple yet according to the devil, this sacred thing was the one that could prevent humans from getting fed on by the lustful devils doing their intimate moment.

Since I wasn’t married to her yet, I had accumulated quite an amount of lust energy in me -which had been told to me by the devil before. However, as the General of White Army, it was impossible for the lower level devils to come and take the energy from me -which was why I was still okay even after I met that devil. I had no use of that kind of energy, but it would surely attract more troublesome devils if I didn’t restrain myself.

Also, since I am a part of mystical army, any negative eenrgy around me would affect the pure energy that we used in restoring the balance.

It sounded like a bad idea if one day something really bad happpened and the accumulated negative energy around me distracted me from doing good things.

No, I need to let go of myself from these negative energy.

Even if it means I can’t touch Jane? I asked myself.

The question successfully reminded me of our sweet time together and I had a huge unwillingness inside my heart to part with them.

I sounded like a pervert, recalling those sweet moments with her and the realization hit me hard.

No! I need to get stronger!

With that determination in mind, I sat crossed legged and focused my mind to sense the universe. It’s time to cleanse my mind!