Chapter 184: Alice's Thoughts (Alice’s POV)
Alice was full of deep thoughts from the moment the battle began.
She wanted to find a way to prove her worth, authority, and power as a Heiress. Although she could fight evenly with Hanna White, a woman who greatly surpassed her in power, she was still at a disadvantage in every fight.
If they kept fighting for any time, Alice would lose, and she knew it.
Still, she didn't give up because she knew that if she did, Matt was going to fall into a passive state, where he would die soon after.
She needed to keep fighting to at least keep a few busy with her.
But the difficulty was too much, even more so when she saw a Grand Sorceress appear who already had her domain inheritance.
A Grand Sorceress with an Expansive Domain is someone too powerful for her and Matt, so she immediately knew that they would fall into a severe state before long. That was why she became desperate and tried to take the lead, but in the end, too many people were fighting against her.
Adding to her concern for Matt, she couldn't do much before she was slammed into one of the room's walls.
To her surprise, she landed next to Matt, so she felt like smiling, not of happiness, but of pity.
She was sure this could be the end for both of them.
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Still, she plunged into her own thoughts once she could think again.
Countless memories and thoughts crossed her mind at that moment as an endless pain hit her.
This pain was not physical; it was mental.
'...An heiress, huh.'
'Heh, what heiress? I'm just a useless one who has inherited ancestral blood... There's nothing to be proud of what I am now. It's been so many years, and I'm barely approaching 10,000...'
Alice knew that she was the most unworthy among the Heirs with Destiny.
At her age, all the heirs were already over 10,000 in power. They were all born with determined, firm, and powerful personalities.
But she...
'Among all of us, I am the stupidest and softest... You are right, Sophia Murphy. I am the most inexperienced among the Heirs, and my softness is also my weakness... It is not for nothing that you usually call me childish.'
Her thoughts were always full of idiocy if she thought about it correctly.
The smoothness of her actions always determined how far she could advance in her life; she has witnessed that. She has always looked out for the welfare of the entire race and has thought that helping everyone and avoiding deaths within the race is one way to do that.
While she doesn't think she's wrong, this is not what is expected of someone like her.
She is a Heiress with Destiny. She had an amazing start from the beginning, but her personality was her weakness and sentence.
Being soft in a world of traitors makes no sense.
When Alice realized that, she smiled a little.
'...If I'm able to acknowledge my mistakes, doesn't that mean I can improve?'
'Honestly, I don't think I need to worry about race. My efforts won't make a difference when there are 100 more than me trying to exterminate it. Saving one won't save the race.'
'The vampire race has seen highs and lows to the point where traitors are now everywhere.'
'That's why I don't need to go easy on them or save them.'
'I see. What's expected of me it's not that I save one of them, not that I'm soft either...'
'What is expected of me...'
Soon, she realized that she had been walking the wrong path.
No one expected her to save them; no one expected her to be gentle with them to provide protection.
The only thing they expect from her is that she will be powerful and decisive.
That she can stand in front of the vampire race and can eliminate the great enemies of the vampire race.
And she will not accomplish that by being soft and childish, for the Great Human Sorcerers, or any of their Three Alignments, are not smooth and childish.
Much less the leaders of the Devourer race.
They are determined, firm, and ruthless.
'...What is expected of me is that I can be just as ruthless as they are...'
'Sophia Murphy, just as you said... I am useless and childish. I can't deny you that. I don't need to worry about race. I need only care about my people; I don't care about the rest.'
'You once told me that if I went on like this, I would attract bad ability... Now I understand what you meant.'
'I must forge my own personality, identity, and character before I receive my inheritance.'
'I see. That's why our ancestors didn't allow us to receive help from our families. It's for us to forge our own identity.' Once she realized that, she looked up determinedly, and a ruthless smile formed.
'Sophia Murphy, you had a better start than I did. You realized this so early; it helped you forge yourself. Still, you've become confident and think you're perfect. That's why I think I will surpass you. I just need to start forging my personality based on my beliefs and stop worrying about useless things.'
Alice moved her hand to grab the weapon next to her.
She didn't realize what Matt was becoming and didn't care. Right now, only her enemy was in her gaze.
Only the Divine Knight and the rest of the people attacking her were before her perception.
That allowed her to look at everything in detail and hold her weapon despite the wounds.
'I just need to be powerful enough to kill all these bastards who dare try to assassinate me.'
'Whether they be vampires, humans, or devourers. If you dare to stand in front of me to challenge me or try to kill one of mine, then I will show you what it means to be a Heir of the Vampire Race.'
At that precise moment, her aura changed, becoming sharper. Her sword finally connected perfectly with her aura, causing it to become as sharp as a saint's weapon.
It wasn't the weapon.
It was her power.
It wasn't the tool; it was her determination!
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