Chapter 387 Miss Qiao (1)
Su Xiaofei returned from her work to her mother's hospital room, only to find an odd and suffocating atmosphere inside. She looked at her mother who was deep in her own thoughts and failed to notice her arrival, then to her husband who was looking at her as if he had done something that surely won't please her.
She sighed to herself and plopped next to Lu Qingfeng, who wound an arm around her waist and kissed her crown. Su Xiaofei could sense that something might have happened during her absence, and she didn't think she would like whatever it was. Lu Qingfeng wouldn't act like this, if he wasn't worried about her reaction.
"Hey, beautiful. How was your day?" She heard Lu Qingfeng ask, pulling Yun Qingrong out of her trance.
"Hmm. Just the usual stuff. It seems we can't avoid the second collaboration with Miss Bai." She answered, leaning her head against his shoulder as she looked at her mother, who was seated on her hospital bed.
"Did something happen while I'm not around?" She asked, sensing that whatever it was, it was probably related to her.
Yun Qingrong wasn't able to answer immediately, trying to find the right words to explain herself. She eyed her daughter and could see that she was waiting patiently for her to say something. It was now or never. It wasn't like she could hide the truth from her daughter, now that Qiao Fengying was aware of it.
"Feifei… actually…" She swallowed the invisible lump in her throat and prayed in her heart that Feifei would at least listen to her.
"Feifei, please listen to me, okay? I know this is sudden… but I want you to know that I found your real parents." She started, seeing the sudden change in her daughter's expression once she mentioned Feifei's birth parents.
Su Xiaofei hardened her jaws and forced herself to remain calm. She didn't want her mother to know that she was already aware of their identities, and that she had no plans on seeking them for recognition.
It was already clear to her that Bai Qingyue had given up on her and didn't want her in her life, based on what her birth mother did in her previous life. As for Qiao Fengying, she could see that he was happily married, and it was enough for her to know that her father truly cared about her.
"Mom, why are you telling me this? Is this really needed?"
Su Xiaofei wanted to understand her mother. She didn't think that it was appropriate to find her birth parents, especially with Yun Qingrong's condition. What was her mother trying to achieve by finding them? Su Xiaofei couldn't understand.
Sensing that his wife and mother-in-law needed some privacy, Lu Qingfeng decided to leave, but the tight hold Su Xiaofei had on his hand forbade him from leaving her side.
Su Xiaofei shifted her gaze to him, and silently begged him to stay. She didn't trust herself at this moment and didn't want to say anything that could hurt her mother or regret later. Having Lu Qingfeng by her side gave her a sense of security, allowing her to believe that everything would be alright.
"I have done something unforgivable, Feifei. I have known for a long time who your parents are, but I didn't say anything, nor did I ever try to return you to them." Yun Qingrong confessed. She realized now how selfish she had been for keeping Feifei to herself all this time.
Previously, she didn't want to admit that there was something wrong during her marriage with Su Haoran, but Yun Qingrong knew that she was also responsible for its failure. She had noticed the sudden change in her husband and suspected that he was possibly having an affair or two behind her back, but she wasn't willing to face the truth.
Su Haoran wasn't always at home, and when she adopted Feifei, Yun Qingrong realized that she and her husband were drifting apart. She admitted that she was a failure as a wife, but having Feifei, Yun Qingrong refused to fail as a mother too. Since she had chosen to take Feifei in, she would be the one responsible for her upbringing.
"You know and yet you didn't tell me? Mama, I don't understand…"
Obviously, Su Xiaofei felt hurt knowing that her mother kept it a secret from her. If she hadn't experienced what she had in her previous life, she would have never known that she was adopted by her. She would also not have found out that her birth mother was the famous actress, Bai Qingyue, and her father was the business tycoon, Qiao Fengying.
Unlike now, Yun Qingrong didn't even have a chance to come clean with her in her previous life, leaving her oblivious and vulnerable to Ye Mingyu's schemes. If she wasn't a colossal fool back then and knew the situation she was in, perhaps she wouldn't lose so easily.
"It's my fault. I shouldn't have lied to you. You must be thinking that it was too late for you to know them now, given that you have reached this age and had gotten married. I would understand if you are mad at me, and I won't hold it against you."
Yun Qingrong knew that her daughter held her in high regards, and being told of this secret might ruin the relationship that they had as mother and daughter. She didn't mean to betray her, but she admitted being selfish in not wanting to give her daughter back to her parents after knowing that Bai Qingyue abandoned Feifei as a young infant.
"Do they know me? Did they try to find me? If they did, why did they never show up and introduce themselves to me?" Su Xiaofei asked her mother after a moment of silence.
She knew that Qiao Fengying had tried to locate her until his last breath in her previous life, but what about Bai Qingyue? Did her birth mother really feel nothing towards her?