Chapter 391 Shared Responsibility
It was the first time that the couple would spend the night at home without Yun Qingrong at home. Lu Qingfeng was a bit nervous about what could happen. It wasn't like he was planning to consummate their marriage by taking advantage of his mother-in-law's absence, because he was sure that his wife might not be ready for it.
He had already showered and was ready for bed while Su Xiaofei was still in the bathroom, taking her long shower. Having known her since his childhood, Lu Qingfeng was already aware of her daily routine and habits, but there were still things he found amusing ever since they got married.
When they were younger, Lu Qingfeng wasn't alone to enter her bedroom at any given point, except for him staying the night in her room when she was stabbed instead of Master Ouyang. He rarely knocked on her door whenever he was sleeping in the guestroom of their home, as he knew that could annoy Su Xiaofei. He felt that once she stepped inside her room, it reminded him of the distance between them.
When the door of the bathroom opened, Lu Qingfeng immediately hit the save button of the document he was working on on his laptop and shut it down. Su Xiaofei hated it when her sleep was interrupted by any devices, hence, her phone was on silent at night.
He couldn't blame her, though. He knew how hard it was to separate work from her personal life, not when she was the boss of the company. However, there were nights that he had to do an all-nighter, but she would keep silent about it and turn her back on him as she slept.
"Are you going to do an all-nighter again?" Su Xiaofei asked as she tried to dry her hair with a towel. "Help me please." She said before handing the towel to him.
Lu Qingfeng set his laptop aside and took the towel from her hand. He then made a space between his legs, allowing his wife to settle herself in between. With her back facing him, he slowly worked on her hair and gently dried it with the towel.
"We've already finished preparing what our group needed to present to our professor. I'm only making sure that there is no error on it." He replied.
This kind of warmth he was receiving from her was something he had been hoping to have for a very long time. There were no words needed to profess their love and trust for each other, only knowing that they had each other's back was enough for Lu Qingfeng to know that she cared about him.
However, touching her like this, sleeping on the same bed as this, and smelling her familiar scent every morning, Lu Qingfeng felt intoxicated by her. Please forgive this man who had lived two lifetimes, only to be denied by her. Not only did Su Xiaofei reject him, she even married another man behind his back! Obviously, this little tyrant was still feeling in disbelief that he hadn't lost her this time.
"Hmm, the house is ours tonight. Do you have anything in mind?"
Lu Qingfeng's hands stilled and he blinked twice after hearing her question. It then reminded him of the indecent thoughts he had earlier. He thought he shouldn't be ashamed of it since they were already married, but he wanted to go with the flow and wait until his wife would be comfortable doing the deed.
"I want you…" He admitted, trying not to get aroused by her scent and how tempting her slender neck looked at the moment. "But I know it's not the right time yet."
"When would be the right time, then?" Su Xiaofei asked. "I don't mind, as long as both of us are willing." She added with a hint of blush on her face.
Su Xiaofei knew that her husband was right, but she also didn't want to neglect Lu Qingfeng's needs. She wanted to do her duty as his wife. She also knew that he wouldn't force her to do anything she wasn't comfortable with, but she would be lying if she said that she didn't desire him and his touch.
"You said that you don't want to have children yet."
"I did say that."
"We haven't actually talked about how to proceed with that. Obviously, we would use some protection, but I'd rather use it than allow you to get on pills or take those shots."
It was Su Xiaofei's turn to be surprised by his words. What did he even mean with that? She turned around and faced him, wanting to see his expression.
"What do you mean?" She asked in confusion.
"Because I read that women currently bear most of the financial and health-related burdens of contraception compared to men. I also read that contraceptive pills have side effects on women. I don't want you to suffer any of its consequences."
Lu Qingfeng believed that birth control wasn't solely a woman's responsibility. A child required a mother and a father to be conceived, so why were women deemed the only ones who needed to be responsible for making sure she won't get pregnant? He couldn't even understand why women were the only ones forced to face the risks.
Su Xiaofei opened her mouth to say something, but no words came out. She hadn't expected that her husband had thought that far and was somewhat amused that he was willing to compromise with her to find a common page where both of them would be comfortable.
"So you mean to say, you don't want me to take contraceptive pills or get shots?" She asked curiously.
Lu Qingfeng shook his head. The side effects of women's hormonal birth control can include acne, breast pain, nausea or vomiting, headaches, diarrhea, weight gain, fatigue and even more serious conditions like blood clots and an increased risk of some cancers. How could he subject his own wife to that?