Chapter 381
?Chapter 381: Chapter 381: Heartache
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“As she recalled the past, Xu Wanwan’s expression became complicated. ”
“She was actually lucky. Even though she had encountered something that made her feel nauseous, no matter what, she could at least meet some noblemen. ”
“”The primary school teacher from back then knew about my situation. She felt sorry for me. Compared to the other students in my class, she was indeed better to me.” ”
“”It was precisely because of this that I learned from the primary school teacher that as long as I did well in my studies, I would be able to escape from that Small World.”. “So when other students were playing, I only dared to study.”. “The primary school teacher also helped me very much on a daily basis, buying milk for me.” ”
“”The first cup of milk in my life was bought for me by this teacher. Later on, I also had the best results in the entire town, and I got into the provincial capital.”. “In addition, she has connections with the teacher and told her friends about my talent. In short, she said some good things about me, so I was able to go to the provincial capital.” ”
“At this point, Xu Wanwan paused for a moment and then continued, “As for why Xu Yue’s biological grandmother agreed to it, it was naturally for the money.” ”
“Seeing the doubt in Li Jingran’s eyes, a bitter smile appeared on Xu Wanwan’s face, and then she explained patiently. ”
“”The thing that can make them let go is naturally because of the money. “Because I was sent to a school in the provincial capital, I don’t need to pay any fees for my studies, and I can get a monthly subsidy. “In addition, Xu Yue’s maternal grandmother’s family isn’t particularly good, so I can still get a monthly subsidy from poor families ”
“These things are impossible to have in schools like Murakami or town. It’s precisely because of this that they agreed in the end.”
“Li Jingran felt a little uncomfortable. He wanted to hug the woman in front of him, but his hand had already been raised, but it froze for a moment. ”
“He was worried that his actions might make Wan Wan uncomfortable. Thinking of this, Li Jingran put his hand down again. ”
“”It’s all in the past,”Li Jingran said with a heartache. ”
“In fact, Li Jingran knew very well that even if everything had returned to normal, sometimes the shadow would still be left behind. ”
But the only thing he could do now was this.
Other words were useless and did not have much effect.
“”Okay.”Xu Wanwan nodded, agreeing with what Li Jingran said. ”
“After pausing for a while and feeling the night breeze, Xu Wanwan continued, “After I started junior high school in the provincial capital, I came into contact with a whole new world.” ”
“”It wasn’t until this moment that I realized that the world was actually like this. However, it was really too late for me to know, so it was very difficult for me to quickly assimilate into the life around me.” ”
“”School had just started for less than half a month, and I was already ostracized by my classmates. They called me little redhead, country girl, and Country Auntie.” ”
“As if she had thought of something funny, Xu Wanwan actually laughed. ”
Xu Wanwan faced Li Jingran and began to make various gestures with her hands.
“”At that time, I was really rustic. I wore cloth shoes since I was young, and the clothes I wore were given to me by other children in the village who didn’t want or wear them. I wasn’t fat, so it was quite funny to wear fat clothes.” ”
“”The best clothes I wore at that time were a set of clothes that the primary school teacher specially bought for me when I graduated from Primary School. However, I couldn’t wear those clothes all the time. If they were dirty, I had to wash them.” ”
“”If a person doesn’t play with you, a group of people won’t play with you. Later on, it becomes a group of people.”. “At that time, I really felt inferior, but I was a little older.”. “So whether it was thinking about things or other aspects, I was able to think for myself better.” ”
“”So when the school distributed the semester bonus and poverty bonus, I secretly hid the money. I was originally staying at school for a long time, so I took advantage of the money to buy clothes and shoes for myself.” ”
“Xu Wanwan didn’t know if she had thought of something unpleasant, but her eyes started to Redden. ”
“Fortunately, it was already night time, so as long as no one paid close attention to her, they wouldn’t notice that her eyes were red. ”
“”When my menarche came, it was the middle school teacher who found out and told me, and then brought me to the physiological supplies. “After that, my first bra and a lot of knowledge about girls were only learned through my own studies ”
“”When I was in my first year of high school, I had already accumulated a little bit of my savings over the years. After I turned fifteen, I could go to the bank to open an account ”
“”So, I took advantage of the fact that Xu Yue’s family didn’t know about it and secretly opened my own bank account. “After three years of study and experience in junior high school, I gained some experience in big cities. “I also gained my own taste and experience in dressing and taking care of myself ”
“”In high school, I got into the best school in the province, with the best grades in the province. “I didn’t dare to relax my study because I didn’t have the capital. “If my grades weren’t good, then I wouldn’t be able to pay my tuition, and I would have to go out and work ”
“”This was the dilemma I faced at that time. Because my grades were good, the high school student aid awards and poverty support payments were a little more than when I was in junior high. “I wasn’t as stupid as when I was in junior high, and I hid a part of the bonuses. Fortunately, the teachers all knew the real situation in my family ”
“”After all, I didn’t even need to make this up. As long as someone with a heart did a little investigation, they would be able to find out the situation in my family. “After the first year of high school, I was ostracized even more. But because my grades were not bad and I had the teacher’s help, the more serious school violence did not fall on me.” ”
“After listening to Xu Wanwan’s words, Li Jingran suddenly had an indescribable feeling in his heart. ”
“He felt very sorry for her. He felt sorry that he did not appear earlier in her life, and that he had suffered so much. ”
“Li Jingran’s eyes were slightly red. Under the moonlight and the streetlights, Xu Wanwan could see clearly. ”
“You...”Xu Wanwan sounded a little surprised. She didn’t understand why Li Jingran was like this.
“After a slight pause, Xu Wanwan continued, “Everything is in the past. I’m fine now. I might have attended a class reunion today, so I suddenly remembered what happened in the past.” ”
“Actually, Xu Wanwan still had some things to say. ”
It was precisely because she had encountered so many things that she felt especially inferior and lacked confidence in her past life.
Perhaps it was also because of this that she ended up in such a miserable state in her past life.