Chapter 60 - The Drive
Having her that close, with her soft fragile body clinging on him for strength, Hawk felt nothing. As much as he was frustrated that Feather had changed so much, he felt very thoroughly upset too that she had not made him feel any fire of desire. He thought perhaps that it was okay that his Somerset favorite girl changed and wanted to rely on his feelings for her as he remembered very well how he was very attracted to her. Although he was dedicated to her, he too was a man with needs and all these years growing up without her, he had desired her fully from the time adolescence struck him. He craved her for some days that he went on and found some satisfaction with a few other women but only ended up craving for her more. When he finally had her, he thought his desire would become more uncontrollable but surprisingly he felt nothing then, not even an ounce of lust.
Comparing it to the times he was intimate with Cat, his body was not attracted to Feather in any way despite the fact that she was a very beautiful woman. She and Cat also shared some features, especially their eyes and sometimes Hawk felt like they were related or something. However, despite some of their similarities, Hawk's desire for Cat was raging like a wildfire but with Feather, there was nothing but a typical warmth as if he was hugging merely a woman who needed comfort.
Hawk wanted to say something but knowing that he was guilty, he couldn't utter a word. Luckily before things went awkward, a doctor came in to check on Feather.
"How is she?" Hawk finally said something but the question was for the doctor to answer.
"Miss Han is just stressed out. She needed some rest," The doctor relayed. They had a thorough check on her and found nothing wrong with her health "It's not unusual for her to be stressed, especially with her line of work. I recommend that she take some off, a day or three will be good,"
"Well then I guess this is a good opportunity to go for a vacation," Madam Fara suggested. She had something in mind to secure Feather's position in Hawk's life especially now that some whore was trying to take her daughter's place. "How about you and Feather spend some time together away from the stress of the city? It's time to get some fresh air,"
"Well…" Hawk was about to reject it outright but Lucas cut him in.
"That's a good idea. After all President Hawk himself needed some days off too," Lucas looked at Hawk in a way that was rather telling that he owed Feather some time. His assistant saw this as an opportunity so Hawk can rekindle whatever feelings he had lost with the girl the moment the mysterious woman appeared.
Feather who was still sobbing suddenly stopped and slowly lifted her head to meet Hawk's grey eyes. "Can we really….would you really go and have a vacation with me?"
"It's okay if you can't," Feather withdrew her words immediately when she didn't get a response from him. "I understand you have more important things to do and meetings you can't cancel. But I'll take the doctors advise and rest at home,"
"I'm sorry for dragging you again here," Feather became more upset with the fact that Hawk hesitated. She was already desperate then in fear that the woman with copper hair had finally taken some portion of Hawk's heart. How dare that slut take something that was hers? If she'll know who she is, she'll make sure to send her to hell!
"President Hawk?" Lucas called on him waiting for his confirmation about their recent conversation. It was obvious Miss Han was already sulking and was suspicious of the things that had been going on between Hawk and his mistress. Right then, Lucas was just worried it might be too late for Hawk to stop his affairs with another woman that he will surely regret once he will lose the Han's heiress.
"Alright. I'll take days off to take care of Feather," Hawk replied. His mind had convinced him it was the right thing to do although his heart was surely not with it.
"My relative is opening a beach resort in Mondrew City. How about you and Feather go there? I heard the weather is really good in Mondrew city these days," Fara suggested further, finding a perfect place where her daughter can spend more quality time with Hawk without much intervention.
"Are you referring to uncle Fonize's hotel and resort?" Feather turned to her mother wondering what she was up to. It was obvious her mother wanted to choose the place where Hawk and she would spend some off.
"Oh yes. I know my love that you had not seen your cousins for a while and as for Hawk, I guess this is a good opportunity for you to get your husband to be acquainted with our family on my side," Fonize was Fara's half brother and their family, the Gao's, live in Mondrew City. Just a few weeks ago, she was given an invitation to appear in the opening of the G Hotels and Beach Resort and she thought of sending Feather and Hawk there. Knowing that it was her family who owned the place, it would be hard for any whore to infiltrate the area and ruin her daughter's vacation.
Hawk only agreed to having a vacation with Feather as he thought it might also be a good opportunity for them to spend some time together. Hopefully he can knock out some sense on his own and realize he was standing between two pit fires and that he needed to act right away on it or he would end up burning. However, as to the details of their vacation and the place, he left it all to Fara because as much as he doesn't have the mood to plan it out for himself, he doesn't want to appear disrespectful to his future mothe-in-law's offers.
After a few little conversations, Lucas and Hawk left the hospital and finished their day in M Conglomerate. Fara then was left to care for her daughter who until then wasn't pleased with everything that was happening.
"God! I thought that woman hit the jackpot when his childhood love turned out to be Hawk Monsanto," Feather nagged, referring to Hawk's Somerset village girl. "Turns out it was nothing but shallow love. Who would have thought Hawk Monsanto would easily throw her away just for a whore!"
"Feather, I told you not to be complacent with it," Fara reminded her. "The opportunity knocked into you, you should have grabbed it tight. You should have not relied on childhood love tales of devotion and loyalty. And you know that woman very well, she was nothing but a shame in the history of the Hans. They should have not allowed that girl to be a part of the Hans. Look how she ruined everything from the very beginning,"
"Now I only have to rely on my own," Feather cussed and looked down on her fingers, checking if her nails weren't ruined. She remembered throwing a lot of things in the photoshoot site before she fainted. Her faint was real that time, it wasn't some kind of acting. She really did faint, everyone's confrontation about his engagement and bad temperament made her so.
"Good, then you should know the best thing to do," Fara said and this caught Feather's attention and made her turn to her mother with anticipation.
"The best thing to do?" She asked.
"Yes" Fara looked at her thoroughly. "You have the secure the wedding will push through as intended,"
"I'll do my best, mother. First things first I should make Hawk Monsanto fall in love with me and not that orphan from Somerset Village," Feather said with confidence and thorough determination. After all she was a beautiful woman and if Hawk Monsanto fell for her beauty once, it would be easy for him to get into her and forget about the others.
"And do you think you can make that happen before the wedding?" Fara laughed at her daughter's complacent plans. It was obvious Feather was still an amateur with these kinds of things and she needed good training to become a wise Madam Monsanto. "That's quite impossible to happen."
"Are you saying I'm not good enough?"
"I'm saying we don't have much time. The goal is for you to become Madam Hawk Monsanto and not Hawk's affection, you can work on that later on," Fara corrected her. She even shook head knowing how slow Feather was to take real action with her recent circumstance.
"Mother if Hawk will not fall in love with me then how can I make him push through the wedding?" Feather was confused. She thought her plan was right but it seemed that her mother had more brilliant schemes.
"You already have a wedding to speak of. What you need is drive on his part," Fara explained. "His drive will not be lust or love. Those things fade. The drive you must secure was something that he cannot resist,"
"And what is that?"
"A child," Fara smiled ferociously. "Make sure something happens between you and Hawk on your upcoming vacation. Make sure you'll get pregnant with his child,"