45 Episode 44: Visit To The Duke Of Magenta House (Part Ii)
"Uphilia, Caind. Keep it that way."
They're staring at each other with their fighting hips. Mrs. Nerschel came in to stop me as I grated at Ufi and Caind, who kept their gaze together but took their gaze off as if the thread of tension had broken.
"Sit here, Caind."
"... Yes"
Kaindo-kun sits next to Mrs. Nerschel across the street. This is how we turn around again, but Caindo-kun's signs remain somewhat pointy. Um, I guess I'm not really impressed.
Or, if we fail to make up here, the later is awkward. Whatever happens in the future, we're going to continue our relationship with the House of the Duke of Magenta, and I want to create a good relationship here. Cough it up so I can get my mind back on it, and I'll face Caind-kun back.
"Kaindo-kun appreciates the achievements of magic itself, right? Especially if you don't know if that's in the national interest, and then you're worried about my personality and ideas?
Caindo-kun won't say anything just to return his gaze to my inquiry, but he won't say anything back, so there's no objection.
"If you're going to tell the truth, I don't think I'm a good royalty. That's more of a story now. I've been acting like I should, too, and I never dreamed the throne would roll over. I don't feel like I deserve it."
"... I have a consciousness that I'm not feeling good enough as a royalty," he said?
"Of course. I think it's a minority to snort when asked if they want to serve such a king. Not on my own. I don't think so."
I really thought you were a minority. I found out that someone appreciated me more than I thought and cared about me. Don't be ashamed, I can't say I don't either. But there's too much missing for me, isn't there? Magic, time, mindset.
So I think I'm going to bump into people who have doubts like Caindkun. If I were to be king, I would be. If you don't have to be king to spread magic, it's a problem you have to face.
"I know I'm not good enough. That's why I want an understander. And the people who can help. That's why I want to discuss it. Until now, I didn't think it had to be understood, but I want to change that attitude."
"... are you saying that this is how you set the scene up to gain my understanding?
"Stay close, I wouldn't even say. It's just that Yufi is walking with me. I want to take care of Yuffi's family. I don't want to leave the status quo, where I or the royal family are confused for a reason. Even if it seems like an extra treat."
Caindo-kun narrowed his eyes thinly. Is it because you're still young that you haven't hidden your emotions from seeing them? That's right, I suppose. If that's what you think, there was something praiseworthy about Al, that stupid brother.
"I can't help but say all my hopes. What do you want me to do, Caindo?
"... what do you want me to do, what?
"You're dissatisfied with me because you don't like the way I swing, do you? But I have an idea of my own, something I can't even give way to. I don't understand this around me any more than I think, I don't get endorsement either. That's no choice, but it's not a good problem to give up if you don't have a choice. So I'm going to start by asking people for their opinions. I want a frank opinion."
"It's that simple. Try to behave like a royal."
"You don't think I'm that mindless as a royal?
"That's what I've been asking. The royal family must not bow their heads to their subordinates at all costs. And in order not to bow your head, you must always show your attitude as a norm."
"This is tough"
Is it always right and normative? Um, in that respect, I'm having a hard time overriding my valuation because of my previous liabilities. No, I don't deserve it.
"What can I do if something happens that I have to keep my head down? Still, I am royal. How am I supposed to take responsibility?
"It's still about acting royal. If you do it right, your grievances will disappear with dew."
"Does that mean I'm not going to make up with Yuffi now?
"... and this is a different matter. If my sister returns to the Duke's house, I can be reassured."
"He said he was against keeping it beside me."
"... Caind"
As Yufi tries to get himself out again, he pushes his hand in front of him. No, he said he's scared of intimidation even though he's not really staring at himself, Yufi.
And Caindo-kun, who is strengthening the pressure of losing and gazing, is amazing. Um, I wonder what's wrong with this.
"It was the rust that came out of me that caused my distrust of the royal family. I can't trust you right now, and even if you tell me to get results, it won't make any noise.... Still, I'm not going to let Yufi go"
"... Really?"
Whoa, killer! My neighbor, Yuffi, was up for a moment. This isn't an exaggeration to say hatred, but you mean you care about Yufi so much. Um, I still have an even more headache.
But for a moment, I've had my doubts. Caindo-kun has not shown the key.
"First, what do you do when Uffi returns to the Duke's house?
"What do we do, what?
"It's Yuffi's honor. Returning to the Duke's house will not erase the fact of the divorce. And I can't tell you that Uffi didn't have a problem telling me how bad Al was."
"You think there's something wrong with my sister?
"I do."
"Isn't it the royals who stained my sister!!"
Momentum pounds his fist on his desk and Caindo-kun reveals his anger. The look is stained with anger and stares strongly at me.
I look back at Kaindo-kun, feeling his head getting cold with a word of Kaindo-kun on the contrary.
"Problems arise because of each other. The weight of responsibility is not equal, but it's not like Uffi is any worse. It's the royal family who's been stained."
"What the...?
"You said it yourself. He said he couldn't save Al's mind. Yufi was perfect both as a duke and next queen. But its perfectly hush-hushed and unable to develop its sensibilities or relationships as a pivotal partner. That's Yuffi's fault."
But if he was asked to be a duke and queen, he had nothing to do with Yufi. But it was in Uffi's lack of walking and thinking that he was not likely to be next door, and it was a clear Uffi lapse that he was not able to develop enough relationships.
Of course, Al is the one who didn't pack the distance, so it's both bad. Some of this is all about people's compatibility. Speaking of bad, Al is overwhelmingly worse, but it's impossible for Yufi to be told like the victim alone.
"Then Prince Algard says what a dissatisfaction he had with his sister!
"That's not Yufi's fault...... it was too perfect. It was painful to be next door."
"That's what...! Isn't it bad Prince Algard who couldn't drink his own shame and couldn't make it right! Is that how the royal behaves!?"
"That's why you got scrapped. Now I'm the next king."
"... you called me Princess Odd Heavenly? When you bury what's missing from it on your sister, you say so?
"That's right. For this reason, we have also prepared a new status for Ufi. All of them got their achievements loaded and made it a beacon of honor restoration. This was decided by Father and Lord Grants. To be clear, I'm not going to pinch your grievances. But then your heart will not be saved. I can't repeat the same mistakes I made when I was Al."
Because I have no choice. That's the right thing to swallow. And you have to be patient. Life is such a pile of things. There's something I really need to swallow.
If you can still save it. I don't want to abandon you if you can reach this. Even more so if you say that's who you want to reach out to.
"Saving...! What do you know about me!? All I could do was see my beloved sister swung at the royal convenience and her honour and heart broken! Say what you know!!"
Caindo-kun finally takes his seat and shouts. No one could do anything about this problem. We all had equal hang-ups and lost sight of the opportunity.
Who's worse, everyone's worse. It got up by that little pile. But that's why I can't just mourn and move on. We have to move on.
"Your dissatisfaction will be there after all. Whether we, the royal family, will not hurt Yufi again. I can't wipe my distrust because I can't take that certainty. Fine, then. Okay, I don't know if you're convinced, but let me make a suggestion."
"Suggestion...?
"Try me. In a way that you are convinced. Whatever you want, you just have to see if you deserve me as the next king and see if I can get enough to keep Yuffi."
I also take my seat and approach Kaindo-kun. Pack the distance and stare back at his gaze from the top.
"It's just that. This is the last time I can give in, too. If you don't even try me and just say you're not convinced... I'll have Uffi cut the edge with the Duke of Magenta"
"Heh... heh!?"
"Uffi is my loyal minister. If you can't trust me, I can't trust you either. [M]... If that sounds later I'll trump the Duke of Magenta house. What matters to me is Uffi, not the Duke of Magenta."
If Uffi bothers between me and the house, cut off Uffi and the Duke of Magenta house with my hands. I told him when I was ready for it.
Mrs. Nerschel, who sighed, uttered words as Kaindo-kun ceased to say and lost them.
"... that won't do either."
"Mother!?"
"Caind, you are the next Duke of Magenta. If you are not willing to offer your loyalty, advise yourself. Know that if you cannot do so, you will not gain the trust of the royal family. We serve only. The Duke will not be responsible for those who fail to make good the Lord's mistakes."
"But... my sister said I'd cut off the edge of the house, etc! If you say I can't, why don't my sister inherit! Cut off the edge, etc., and no!
"I'm not saying anything is wrong with you. Besides, Yuffi was supposed to marry the royal family. It just slightly changes its shape. Besides, it would be difficult to succeed the wounded Uffi. It's a prerequisite for taking a son-in-law.... and Yufi would also take Princess Anisphere if it were our home and Princess Anisphere?
"Of course it is. … even if you can no longer call your mother my mother"
To Mrs Nerschel's inquiry, Uffi quietly returns her words. Kaindo-kun takes a step back to Yufi's response and steps back.
"... Caind. If you are not worthy here, the Duke of Magenta will close its history."
"Nah...!?"
"In the times to come, the way the country is going to change dramatically. That is definitely what Princess Anisphere has earned the right to inherit the first throne. If you can't keep up with the course of that era, I was wondering if it's also up to parents to say no before they push you away."
"... are you thinking the same thing Father and Father...! Forgive me for that!
"I just want you to stay strong. You just have to be worthy of being the next Duke's owner. Isn't that the same thing you asked Princess Anisphere to behave as a royal?
Mrs. Nerschel overlaps her words toward Kaindo-kun in a sharp blade-like tone.
"Come on, sister, go away. Yuffi's future is up to you, and yours is up to you. Until now, I thought about Uffi standing as queen and raised him as loyal as possible... but things have changed."
"Mother...!
"Sweetness is unacceptable. Look at reality, take it, think. We've given you as much education as we can think of. If that's still not enough, it's nothing more than a disgrace to our house. Let me spoil and accept that immorality with you."
If Mrs. Nerschel says it all, Kaindo-kun chewed her lips and silenced her.
After seeing Kaindo-kun, who has been silent, Mrs. Nerschel turns her gaze.
"Princess Anisphere, may I have some more time? I'm going to discuss it with my son, too. And Grants, of course."
"... I don't mind waiting. I just can't get a long reprieve."
"Yep. If you seem to be so obstinate... Uffi, I'll leave the decision to you."
"Thank you for your concern, Mother."
Uffi bows his head deeply to Mrs Nerschel's words.
... In the end, the air of talking about it also disappeared, so I left the matter of Kaindo-kun to Mrs Nerschel and we decided to go back to the outhouse.
On the way back to the outhouse. I was blurry as the carriage that got me out of the Duke of Magenta's house rocked me. Uffi, sitting face-to-face, was also looking out in the sky somewhere above.
The sky is the color of the sunset. The side of Uffi lit by the sunset was somewhere full of worry and looked very lonely.
"... Ufi, I'm sorry"
"Yes?"
"... take the liberty of talking about isolation, bring it up"
"No. I think it was necessary.... Talk to me again and I get it. Cain's heart swore allegiance to me, not to the royal family."
Yufi says as he lays his eyes down. That looks so careless. It does seem to me that Kaindo-kun was loyal to Ufi individuals. But that might not help either. He said he had been educated since he was a child when he saw Uffi as queen.
Maybe if Uffi could have been queen, there would have been no problem. But it didn't. When this happens, the feeling of admiring Kaindo-kun's Yufi becomes excessive.
"... you remind me how indifferent I was to the eyes from others"
"Ufi?"
"As required, just if perfect. I've believed that to be right. But I just wish I could have realized how Algard and Cain felt. If it's even Caind, how did Algard feel about his surrounding eyes… so he's not careless."
"... do you regret that loyalty was directed at Uffi personally and not actually to the royal family?
"... Yes. I didn't really understand Algard's suffering, but I noticed a little bit when I saw Caind. Even though it is Master Algard who should be king, that has made me scorn the royal family. I guess it's not just Cain, those who looked at me like that."
... I can't deny that.
Yufi was perfect for better or worse. So I think Al-Kun's mediocrity, arranged next to it, stood out. That's why I put Uffi on top mainly, not Al-Kun. I can't say there wasn't anyone like that.
If I do find myself in such an environment, I can't help but distort it if I realize it. I think Al might have noticed. That's why I thought so much of it, and things happened.
"Even now, I'm afraid of myself.... Master Anis is amazing. I can't believe you understand your dangers. I didn't understand anything about me."
"... I guess I can't even be told that I noticed. Surprisingly, I don't know who I am."
Some environmental differences, others you won't notice without a hang-up. Besides, I'm supposed to be an adult in this world, but Uffi is 15 years old, and I think it's hard to tell him to understand himself in 15 years.
Yufi was right to be able to behave as he wished in the given environment. But it's not all gonna work out because you're right. The world is always muddled.
"If you're scared, will you give up being king?
"... No way. Instead, I thought it would be better if I became king."
"Some people might see Yufi as sacred, like Caindo-kun, right?
"Let's leave that to people, it was sweet. So now I want to carry it all myself. If a powerful man wants a qualified man... I will bear it."
I can't see the color of stray in Yuffi's eyes. I think he's a really strong kid.... so I can also be king. I'm sure I can be a more legitimate king than I am. But it's not just my hobby to let you carry it.
Standing up with his hips floating, he sits straight next to Uffi and moves his seat. I pull Yuffi's shoulder trying to watch out for me as I move my seat and knock Yuffi down so he can put his head on his own lap.
"... Dear Anis, it's dangerous"
"Uffi, be sweeter to me. It's good to try, but if it's hard, you can say it's hard, and if it's painful, you can say it's painful. I may not be able to show my true self. But just stop faking it to me."
Because if not, it's not a way of life, it's a creature. Yufi is really going to be that way and it's dangerous. If you tell me, I'll do as they tell me, and I'll be alone as I am.
They told me I couldn't, so if Yufi's going to be alone, he needs to stop even if he grabs the root. Yufi laughs like trouble at my words and whines small as I hide that eye area with one hand.
"... Dear Anis"
"What?
"... what people expect is heavy..."
"If you notice the weight, you're a proper human being. Good for you, Uffi."