The Sins of Anna

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When I woke I was a little shocked to find I was in Ren's arms. I hadn't been drinking and my brain wasn't that bad so what the hell happened. I sit up recalling the events that took place. All of them. Including the fact that I am suppose to get to the pharmacy, like now. I get up gently to not disturb him. I rummage through my bags I have yet to unpack and find a change of clothes. Tossing on a robe I look up in shock from a knock that comes at the door. Hesitant I look at Ren. The knock pounds harder. I go to the door and quietly unlock it slipping it open a crack. Jack is on the other side. He looks tired and pissed and for once the age he actually was. Which when I had finally asked I was a little shocked. I had thought when we first met he was mid 40's turns out he was in he's late thirties. He recently turned Thirty-nine.

"We need to talk." He is practically foaming out of the mouth. I slip out the door closing it behind me. I cross my arms in front of my chest holding the robe tight around me.

"What is so important this early?" I ask trying to keep calm. I have no proof if he's acting this way because he knows about last night or not.

His eyes narrow at me. "Your father heard what happened and wants you to return immediately." I can't help feeling a little pissed. What the fuck, how the hell did he know? The answer was right in my face. I my eyes wide with shock as I look back at Jack.

"You, you told him." He says nothing. I can now feel the frustration boiling in the pit of my stomach. "You fucking went behind my back and told him what happened. You know what he's like." My voice now higher pitched. Then a new realization hit me like a ton of bricks, no he didn't. "Tell me Daniel didn't cancel the meeting!" I was now yelling in fear. "God damn it Jack you know how important that meeting was to me." I am now in hysterics.

"I don't see why the fuck you need it any more when you're back together with the ass wipe that abandoned you!"

"No shes not!" I freeze feeling my stomach tie in knots when I turn behind me to the voice that spoke. Ren's words were harsh and cold. A sneer on his face as he looks back between me and Jack. I knew it was for just last night that he was trying to comfort me and we both gave in to the lingering feelings but was there really no way to get past the hatred he felt for my blood family. I swallow hard. He was right Ren never promised me anything in fact he said just for last night. I want to puke remembering, I was so stupid. I swallowed it down.

"He's right Jack, There was not once talk about reconciling. So you know what? Why don't you both get the fuck out of my sight." I push past Ren and slam the door shut in both there faces.

How was I so stupid. I grabbed my clothes I had dropped on the floor and hide in the shower in the master bathroom for what felt like hours. Though it wasn't. When I came out Maliki was in my room waiting. I stock over to the window and lookout of it.

"Ren fucked up and spoke rashly." Maliki says walking to join me.

"So what? He sent you to clean up for him?" I say folding my arms. I watch his serious face fade.

"No I came because we are friends and I know you both are stubborn. I want you to know your not alone." He sighs running his hand through his hair.

"I'm sorry Maliki." I apologize and I really did mean it. "I just feel so hurt and betrayed. I'm taking it out on you and that's not fair." I sigh dropping my shoulders and turn to face him. I really wanted to cry.

"Tell me my lady. What can I do to fix the trouble Feng clan and by the clan I mean Ren has caused you?"

"Daniel canceled the meeting with Elder Berston." I sigh though this was thanks to Jack and his jealousy. "It won't be easy to get him to reschedule it." Who knows what all Jack told him in his jealous fit.

"I don't think Elder Berston will agree to a meeting if I arrange it; however." Maliki stops and ponders. "Maybe I can talk to your father for you." I look at him stupefied. What would he even begin to say. Daniel also believed this was a marriage proposal meeting. I mean the man isn't stupid I'm sure he probably could have put two and two together but if Daniel knew the truth he wasn't leading on. So if he thinks me and Ren are now together there would be no point for that meeting I'd need a new reasoning. Plus now he's demanding I return to the manor. I shake my head.

"No I just need a number. I will make the call to Elder Berston myself. I need to stop hiding behind others and stand on my own two legs; because right now their strength alone is all that is keeping me from crying on the floor right now." I let out another sigh.

"Maybe you should just tell Ren everything. No more secrets, no more confusion." I look at him wide eyes in disbelief.

"And what? He already said it, we're not together. Also if I tell him and by some miracle he gives a rats ass, he's liable to lock me up like Danial would do to prevent me from digging further." I shake my head. "No, I had to do this. Besides it was made clear I was a one night stand last night. We both gave into a lingering urge, but no matter how much I love him no matter how far into hell I fall for him it wasn't going to be as easy as we had chemistry."

"So then will you go into Jacks arms?" I return a sad smirk to Maliki's words.

"For now my future is about finishing this mission then who knows. Maybe I'll just disappear like I should have from the very start." Maliki frowns at my bad joke. He opens his phone. Suddenly I hear a beep. I look down at my phone a text from Maliki with a phone number.

Maliki walks away to leave my room, "Thank you." I call after him.

"Just remember Anna if you disappear more then just Ren, Jack and your father will miss you. You're family, I.." He clears his throat "and even Mike will miss you as well as the rest of the Feng clan that got to know you." I smile at him feeling his warmth.

"I'll miss you." I whisper as he closes the door whether he heard or not I'm not sure.

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Moment that door was slammed in my face I wanted to go back in and throw a fit like a little kid. Last night I had wished deeply she would fall pregnant with my child. That maybe we could just make this work because no matter how hard I fight it one thing David made me realize is I can not love her. I wanted to possess her in an unhealthy way. Maliki was heading down the hall toward the her room not wanting to explain to him how I fucked up again I stormed off past him. He didn't follow. Unable to control my rage at myself brooding alone in my room I decide to cool off in the garden let the sun ray wash over me. Should I go back up there and just propose fuck if I was her I'd laugh in my face thank me for the great lay and tell me to fuck off.

"Ren." Maliki called out to me. I watched as he crossed the garden. His face serious. "There's something you should know, that I should have told you a while ago."