The Traps of Black Swan

[Warning: This chapter might trigger some readers due to the opinions and views of the Female lead. Her views are due to her experience so I (Author) hope that you don't get offended.]

'Can't there be love without lust? Why can't be simple physical touches is enough for love? Why is kissing important?' She wasn't diverting away from the kiss but actually looked confused with a hint of curiosity and dilemma trying to define what actually 'Love' is.

Somehow, Aaron realized Aarvi doesn't have a good impression of Love. In fact, she could only define the like, dislike, and hate. Little Ava was too innocent to understand lust so she knew the longing, yearning, happiness of him over hers, blind faith, immense trust, sadness seeing him hurt were part of love.

Forgetting him, she now has a major misunderstanding about Love and Lust. To interpret it out more incorrectly, the scenes on the screen continued with a bed scene defining her doubt as fact.

His first thought directly jumped to her experiences before or after her canceled wedding then it returned to the two men, Shawn and Dax who never had any serious relationship but had a quiet share of girls in their life. Aaron doesn't blame her for her misunderstanding because she had never seen true love in her whole life, even Vance Hays and Grace Wells started off with a physical relationship hence the world she knows has Lust with or without Love.

'Can't there be love without lust?' He picked her first question, "Lust and Love are worlds apart..."

Aarvi's brows raised in question, 'How?' and saw the television screen where kiss ended them up on the bed.

Aaron continued turning her towards him to avoid twisting her neck to see him, "In lust, you don't care about the person or their feelings other than your physical satisfaction. The physical intimacy you call in love is desire, you wish for it, you yearn for it but more than that you care about the person."

Aarvi seriously heard him for understanding it better. She always thought that Love and Lust coexist or else Lust and wealth aka power or else Love and wealth. Most of the relationship starts with Lust in today's world else why would so many people have date nights before starting a relationship? The countless loveless arranged marriages start with lust or society's stereotypes.

Thinking of an exemplar for both Lust and Love, her fingers balled up into a tight fist remembering the right fitted person for Lust, Leon Harmon. The exemplar for Love, she couldn't find anybody fitting to the list other than the man sitting in front of her.

Looking back at him, her stiffened body and balled-up fist slackened naturally. Aaron continued without missing her any reaction, "If Love had Lust, do you think I would have waited for you so long?"

Okay, she had already understood that but she still muttered under her breath, "But you confessed to me after the kiss."

Aaron's brow raised hearing her and smirked looking at her imposingly, "Are you sure that was out of lust?" Then he loomed over her causing her to back off and finally pinned her on the couch but she blinked blankly looking at him lost in her own thoughts.

"Shall we imitate being in lust?" He probed dangerously craving to see her fright and say, 'I was wrong.' but other than seeing her batting her long lashes, he got to see her calmness.

Aarvi stated the fact looking him in the eye, "I know you won't do anything." Her mellow toned words left him wordless understanding she wasn't going to get frightened by his little acting.

He sighed in his mind, gently and affectionately bumped his forehead with hers before sliding his hand behind her head and back to pull her up to sit.

This Cupcake of his... too calm headed dismantling all his tricks.

Now he moved to her next question, 'Why can't simple physical touches be enough for love?' seeing her waiting for him hoping to know more, "Have you heard about lost love or the one they love loves somebody else?"

Her response to the question left him speechless, "Yeah, in the pathos songs. According to those songs, if the person they love is happy, they need nothing else but they aren't really happy about losing their love. Hence even though they are happy for their love, they are very much sad for themselves."

'Pathos songs? Haven't you seen real love even once? Or saw a girl or boy sad over losing the one they loved?' He really wanted to ask, thinking that was the end of her response but it wasn't and she continued with entire seriousness.

"... However, in the real world, people move on putting a status as 'a second chance in love' else they will hide about their past relationship with the next one and after the next one. Or might end up stalking them every day. Some..."

Aaron quickly covered her mouth to stop her listing the reality of the world. 'Aarvi Evans, you would have died single without me. Sigh.' He sighed without asking because he knew her answer would be the same.

He wanted to explain physical touch doesn't really need all the time to show their love, some people love a person just by looking from afar. 'Isn't this common knowledge gained by the world? Why is she unaware? Or does the negative world dominate for her?'

As far as he knew, little Ava from his experience and whatever his brother told him, Ava was completely a positive person who would find good even in the worst. Seems like a near-death experience... Nope, for her, it was a death experience that really changed and put things in a different perspective.

Aarvi waited for him to speak and let her go but got to see his blank gaze on her which wasn't actually focusing on her but lost in the thoughts. Holding his palm, she peeled it and asked, "Are you thinking of any medical definition to fool me?"

Aaron: "..."

He chose another instance, "Do you know about the long-distance relationship?"

"Yeah..." Her response was instant surprising him but her continued words left him wordless for the Nth time, "The couples say they love each other for many days and then move to sex chatting... what they say... Hmmm, Sexting. They wait to meet up to curb their lust and who knows they weren't cheating behind the back." She shrugged.

Aaron felt the need to calm down. 'What in the world is going on in her head?' Yet she was sitting in front of him innocently blinking her eyes patiently waiting for a response.

Aaron's first question, "Aarvi Evans, do you think there is anybody good in the world?"

"Nope." Sharp and instant response.

Hopefully, Aaron had prepared himself for that response, "Not even you? Or... me?"

Aarvi shook her head, "You hid things about me and you might not find another crafty one like me. Goodness doesn't hover around me."

'You could have lied to me as good. Sigh.' He thought rendering another time tongue-tied hearing her give herself the worst review possible.

Aarvi watched him silently cupping her face letting him take time. He never took so long for the response so she started thinking if she said anything wrong but found nothing. Her lips formed like O realizing the girlfriend should be sweet and nice but she called him not good, 'Is he angry?' She thought, looking at his aloof face.

'But what I said is the truth.' She justified and gently poked his soft cheek with her finger to get his attention but he asked, "May I get a hug?"

His emotionless tone had just ended. Aarvi kneeled on the couch and wrapped her arms around his neck thinking he was disappointed by her response, "Actually you are really good compared to others, you saved me, you always save so many in the hospital, hence you are still the best. So don't be sad."

Aaron wanted to facepalm himself hearing her while her hand patted him like a pet. Firstly he never in his dreams thought one day they would discuss Lust compared with Love, not to mention Kiss was also coming up.

 He ignored her words and asked, "The simple hug and loving from afar is also love. Do you think you are embracing due to lust?"

Aarvi's hand froze for a second before she sat back squinting her eyes glaring at him, "I hugged you because you asked and... I thought you were sad." Then she thought, 'Never mind, this is too much to handle for me.'

This girl... He had no words to describe. "Did I touch you in the past years?"

Aarvi who was about to give up on that topic blinked once going back to the past two years. He had held or touched her only when it was needed due to her health or her stupidity. Currently, she never felt his touch uncomfortable in any way.

Her little bums moved next to him to cuddle as she said, "You are an exception."

"Do you agree?" Aaron asked to confirm as he wrapped his arm around her waist, turned her around to lean her back on his folded leg to see her clearly.

Aarvi nodded by adding, "Only in your case..." Then she continued, "So why is kissing important?"

"It creates feelings of affection." He answered and realized she will counter it with hugs so he continued, "Our brain produces a chemical cocktail due to lip sensitivity. Those chemicals or hormones are dopamine, oxytocin, and serotonin..."

Aarvi's lips twitched hearing so many chemical names, 'How the hell little brain produces so many things?'

Aaron continued lifting her jaws up, "They are three feel-good Hormone because it lights up the pleasure centers in our brain."

Those words picked her interest just like Oxytocin and asked resting her head on his knee to look at him, "What do they do?"

He knew the medical or biological terms pick her curiosity more than him, "The dopamine can stimulate the same area of the brain activated by heroin and cocaine hence the Kissing is addictive..."

Aarvi mumbled, "So you have high dopamine." 

He continued pinching her cheeks, "You know Oxytocin, that fosters feelings of affection and attachment. Serotonin's biological function is storing memory. Hence the memory of a good kiss can stay with us for years."

"Ohhh" Aarvi's lips opened like O storing everything in her little brain and thought, 'I should try. It's feel-good hormones after all.'

Aaron asked, pulling her closer, his lips arched to an enticing curve with his seductive gaze locking her eyes "You should learn to kiss to create some memories."

Aarvi failed to look away from his deep gaze and straddled him as his hands silently guided her.