Why Did I Become the Villainess?

"Ysavel. Did you see it? Did you see what have you done?"

I heard someone said. I open my eyes and found myself in the room in my dreams before. And the voice that is talking is also the same sarcastic voice who talked to me before.

"Did you see it, Ysavel?"

I frown at his words. What does he mean? What should I see?

"Dumb. You're really dumb. I thought after the warning I gave you, you'll be smarter, but I guess your stupidity cannot be cured."

"Hey! I'm not stupid! It's just that your words are too vague. It's difficult for me to comprehend."

The voice laughs mockingly. "See? You're dumb. If you're not dumb, how come you couldn't comprehend what I have said? My words are simple. If you'll just use that pea size brain of yours, you'll know what I mean."

I rolled my eyes at the voice. Yeah, right. Simple your face. You're the one who is dumb. Your whole family is dumb.

"Can't accept the fact that you're dumb, so you're projecting it onto me? Ysavel, Ysavel, I don't understand what does she sees in you."

She? Who is he referring to? Who's she?

"It's for you to know who is 'she'. Anyways, I didn't talk to you just to have a little chit chat. You probably realize by now, how your previous actions changed the story. I already warned you, Ysavel. You couldn't change what you have written. But you didn't listen."

I suddenly remember the earthquake that happened before. After the earthquake. Rufus told me about the result of the research on the cause of the earthquake. However, all researchers find it strange because they didn't find a plausible reason for it.

There's no volcano in here, and even if this world isn't the real world. They still have a unique way of knowing the reason of an earthquake. But the earthquake that happened has no reason to happen at all. It's like it happened out of nowhere for no scientific explanation at all.

"Is the earthquake that happened before are the consequences of my actions?"

"You finally said something with sense. Yes, you are right. It's a warning, Ysavel, don't interfere with what will happen. Don't try to warn them. We know. This world knows. You cannot hide what you are planning to do from us, Ysavel. It's no use. No matter, what you do, things will happen."

"So, what do you want me to do, huh? To just watch them get endanger? I know what will happen. How can I just sit still and watch it? Those are people I cared about. How do you expect me not to do anything?"

"It's your choice, Ysavel."

"Choice? I never choose to be the villainess. I never choose this."

"Remember when the little girl gave you the notebook? She told you to write your next story in that notebook so that you're next novel will be famous. Didn't you write on it? Nobody force you to write on that notebook, Ysavel. It's your ambition that urges you to write on it. Right from the start, you're the one who chooses this path."

I scoff with the voice words. "Yeah, I choose it, but I never choose to be the villainess. Why did I become the villainess? I never wanted to be Csille! So, stop with that, I choose to be Csille. Because right from the start, you didn't give me an option."

"Ysavel, all action has corresponding consequences. You want to be a successful writer, but you don't want to face the consequences of your ambition? Ysavel, do you think life is all about giving you want you want? It's not all about sunshine, honey. If you want to be a successful writer, then you need to finish the story as Csille Lauretré. You choose this Ysavel. We gave you the chance to go back before, right? But what did you do? You choose to be here."

He's right. I choose to stay here.

"You chose to be here not just because of your dream to be a writer. It's because of the people here. Aren't you a little bit selfish? You want your novel to be known, but at the same time, you want to keep your loved ones here? You need to choose Ysavel. Your dreams or your loved ones here? What does matters to you the most? Your all time dream to be a famous writer or the family you never have and you wish to have? Pick a choice, Ysavel."

My dream or my family?

Since I was a child, I dream of being a writer. Writing is my coping mechanism. It gives me comfort and helps me create a world I will never have. Happiness, love, family, and friends. With just a pen and paper, I could create a world where I am the main lead. Where I am happy. Where I have everything.

I dream of being a writer so that I could share this world with everyone, especially to those people who need an escape from the cruel world.

If I choose my dream, then I would be sharing this world with those lonely people who are tired of the cruel world. I could give them a world where they can be happy, even just for a while.

   But if I choose my dream, what will happen to my family and friends here? The Count, the Countess, Brother Pascal, Prince Fraser, Princess Paislee, and Prince Rufus? Can I bear to see them hurting because of Csille's schemes?

   "Ysavel, don't forget that if you choose to save your family and still insist on saving them. Then this world will collapse. All those people living in this world will die, and even you will die in here. You cannot go back, and the real world will forget your existence."

   The real world will forget my existence? What does it mean?

   "If you choose to save them, then this world will see you as one of its people. All the traces of your existence in the real world will be erased. You cannot have two existence in both worlds, Ysavel. It's also the same reason why you are Csille Lauretré in here and not Ysavel. So, what will be your choice, Ysavel?"

   All the traces of my existence will be erased? All those people who know me in the real world will forget about me? It's as if I never existed? Do I want that? Do I want to be forgotten just like that? Also, if I choose to save my family here, I would die here.

   Isn't it a bit cruel? I don't even have a choice. It's either everyone will die, even me, or I would continue to be the villainess of the story.

   If I choose to be the villainess, then my dream will come true. Plus, this world wouldn't perish. I would just hurt them, but they wouldn't die. In the end, they will still be happy especially Prince Fraser and Princess Paislee.

   "I guess you made your decision now. Ysavel, remember don't do things that you will regret in the future."

   I was about to answer the voice when I feel my head dizzy, and I feel nauseous. I close my eyes, and when I open it, I see myself inside of a moving carriage.

"Csille? Are you okay? You look pale."

I look to my side and saw Prince Rufus, who is now looking worriedly at me. I look around and also see Prince Fraser, Princess Paislee, and Leander.

Oh yeah, I remember now. We are now on our way to the venue of the Grand Exemplary Competition. It will be held in the Saiven Kingdom, the third most powerful Kingdom after Aeslaerean and Vrawyth Kingdoms.

Saiven is on the other side of Vrawyth, so it will take a month before we get there. We have been traveling for a week now.

I shake my head at Rufus as a response. I don't feel good. I still feel dizzy and nauseous. Probably because of the one week traveling nonstop.

Rufus inch closer to me and touches my forehead. "You're cold." He then touches my neck to check my temperature. But before he couldn't even touch my neck, two hands stop him.

I look to the owner of two hands. It's Prince Fraser and Leander. Both guys are frowning and looking at Rufus.

"What do you think you are doing, Rufus?" Prince Fraser asks.

"Prince Rufus, isn't it inappropriate for you to touch Lady Lauretré's neck? Do you realize what you are doing?"

Rufus frowns at Prince Fraser and Leander. He shakes his hands off. Trying to get away from the two guy's grip, but the two wouldn't let him off.

Rufus sighs and looks at me. "You trust me, Csille, right? I would never do something that is against your will or your right. I just want to check your temperature." Rufus looks at Prince Fraser and Leander. "Can't you see how she looks like now? She's pale."

Prince Rufus and Leander both look at me. They let go of Rufus' hands and comes towards me.

"Csille? Are you okay? Should we let the coachmen stop the carriage for a moment?" Prince Fraser said while looking at me worriedly. He squeezed himself between me and Rufus.

Leander then sits beside me on the left side. "You should have told us you don't feel good, so we could have take some break from traveling. How could we forget? You're a woman, and you're not used to long travel like this. Let me check your pulse." Leander takes my pulse to check it.

But Prince Fraser grabs my hand away from Leander. I look at Prince Fraser's hands, that is now holding my hands. "You don't need to bother Leander. We will be stopping in the nearest City in a moment. You could just check her after we take some rest there."

Leander looks at Prince Fraser. He looks like he wanted to refused, but of course, how can he? He's just the son of the royal physicians. Prince Fraser is the Crown Prince and the future King of the country. How could he disobey him?

I sigh and take my hand away from Prince Fraser. Remember, Ysavel. You cannot talk or interact with Prince Fraser.

I look at Leander. "Can you check it? I really don't feel good."

Leander look stunned by what I have said. Can't blame him, though. I just contradicted Prince Fraser's words. He then looks at Prince Fraser, who is also stunned right now. He probably doesn't expect that I would not follow what he said.

Leander clears his throat and looks at me awkwardly. It's like he's saying, he couldn't do what I said.

I raised my eyebrows at him.

Leander sighs. "I think Prince Fraser is right. It's better to check your condition after we settle down in the City. I'm afraid I couldn't read your pulse properly with all these constant movements in the carriage." After saying it, Leander gets back at his seat and busy himself reading a medical book.

I look at Prince Fraser. He is about to say something when I close my eyes and pretended to sleep.

It's better to be safe than sorry. I cannot talk to you Prince Fraser.

The carriage becomes silent again. No one is talking. I could only feel movement beside me. Prince Fraser probably gets back to his seat.

The carriage travel for half an hour before it stopped at the nearest City. The Illorian City. It's an independent city among all the Kingdoms. Although it's small compared to the Kingdoms but it the people from here are really strong.

Even the most ferocious army generals of the other Kingdoms are from this City. There is a humor that even children in here are too strong that they could already fight with a normal adult in other kingdoms.

The origin of their strength is still unknown. Many Kingdoms tried to install their spies in the city to know the cause of Illorians' unparalleled strength, but they didn't get anything.

The spies tried training with the people in here. Eat what people are eating in here and lives in the city for a decade, but their strength still incomparable to the Illorians.

Up until now, it's one of the mystery of this world. It's also the exact reason why no Kingdom dares to take over the City. They are afraid that with the strength of Illorians, the one who will lose is them.

   There is one time that a Kingdom dares to conquer the Illorian City, but that Kingdom ended up being entirely annihilated. After that, no other Kingdoms dare to provoke this City.

Aside from their strength. Illorians are also loyal to their race. If those Illorians Generals who's working in different Kingdoms know that someone is planning to attack their City they would leave that Kingdom and fight with the Illorians. It's the reason why this Illorian Kingdom remains unshakable in this world.

   I look around the. We just entered the city and there's a lot of people outside walking.

Illorian city? Illorians? So, it's them.