With My Profound Love, I Offer to the Years

Chapter 34

He carefully and quietly closed the door.

“......” The bedroom became quiet again. Shen Nian, who had been sleeping, suddenly opened her eyes.

She just blankly stared at the ceiling without saying anything.

She knew that Lu Lingchuan had gone out.

She sat up stiffly without even putting on her shoes and went into the bathroom.

Their daily necessities were placed in the bathroom.

Shen Nian stood in front of the sink, staring blankly at herself in the mirror.

She had no makeup on, still wearing that black dress, her hair was a bit messy, her face expressionless, even her eyes were dim.

She now looked like a puppet in a puppet show, without a soul.

She stared at herself blankly for three seconds, then reached out to open the mirror.

Generally there would be storage space behind a sink's mirror to put things.

Shen Nian took out a very small paper box from inside, with words like eyebrow knife written on it.

She poured out the contents after opening the outer box. They were strips of sharp eyebrow razor blades.

She picked up one of the blades, peeled off the protective paper and threw it into the trash can next to her.

She stretched out her left hand and looked at her slender wrist through which veins could be seen.

【I heard the one who died was your good friend. She's dead, what face do you still have to live on in this world? 】

【Why don't you just die with her!】

【You shameless girls must have seduced my husband on purpose. I've seen lots of vain girls like you!】

【The one who died shamelessly, you are no good thing either! 】

【Just go die quickly! Scum like you don't deserve to live in this world!】

【Abandoning your good friend and running away yourself, how do you still have the cheek to live!】

【Shameless!】

【Quickly go die......】

The vicious words they said echoed in Shen Nian's ears over and over again. Her breathing became difficult, her chest undulating.

The only word in her mind now was death...

Why did Ling Rui die but she still lived well...

The heart-wrenching cries and accusations of Li Mingshi during the day rang in her ears again.

【You bad child, why didn't you save her, why didn't you take her away with you!】

【My RuiRui treated you so well, how could you bear to let her face those things alone, why didn’t you take her away!】

Their insults intertwined with Li Mingshi’s cries echoed back and forth in her ears.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." Shen Nian lowered her head, her shoulders shaking.

Looking at her beautiful, clean wrist.

Over the years, when she was in pain, she had thought of self-harm more than once, but such ideas would be interrupted every time they began to form.

She could not self-harm. If she made a cut, Lu Lingchuan would be able to spot it.

The pain in her heart had no catharsis. She really could not stand such suppressed pain.

Dying would be good too. If she died, she would not feel so painful.

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On the balcony——

"Arrange proper accommodation for Lawyer Xu. His flight is tomorrow."

"I will pick him up personally tomorrow."

Lu Lingchuan gave orders calmly.

Suddenly.

"Hiss -"

For some unknown reason, there was a sudden dull pain in his chest that made Lu Lingchuan frown.

He pressed one hand on his heart, but the feeling only lasted one second.

"Mr. Lu, Mr. Lu?"

Hearing the sound from Lu Lingchuan, the person on the other end of the call anxiously asked, "Mr. Lu, are you uncomfortable? Mr. Lu......"

For some reason, Lu Lingchuan always felt a little stuffy in his chest, a feeling that was hard to express.

Hearing the inquiry, Lu Lingchuan came back to his senses and replied plainly, "It's nothing, just accidentally hit something."

"We'll talk about other things tomorrow."

For some reason, he was a little irritable now and just wanted to see Shen Nian.

Even he himself did not know why he would feel this way. It was as if his brain had been given an order.

See Shen Nian, see Shen Nian......

Without saying anything more, Lu Lingchuan hurriedly hung up the phone and turned to stride into the bedroom.

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"Snap."

At the moment the blade was about to touch her wrist, her right hand suddenly lost strength and the blade fell into the sink.

She stared at her pale face in the mirror.

No, she could not do it...

Shen Nian shook her head, shaking all those women's insults out of her mind.

She could not die, at least not now.

The two beasts who ruined Ling Rui had not paid the price yet. She absolutely could not die.

If only for Ling Rui's sake, she had to live on.

Shen Nian gritted her teeth, put away those blades and put them back to their original place before leaving the bathroom and returning to the room.

Just as she lay down, she heard the sound of Lu Lingchuan opening the door.

Lu Lingchuan also didn’t know what had come over him. Just now, after the dull pain, his heartbeat had uncontrollably sped up, as if it would jump out of his chest.

That feeling made him very uneasy.

Only after pushing the door open and seeing Shen Nian sleeping peacefully on the bed could that sense of unease gradually dissipate.

Lu Lingchuan closed the door and walked towards the big bed, lowering his eyes to look at Shen Nian.

To see that she was still in front of him, to see that she was still fine...

He gently caressed her face, touching her slightly cool little face.

Shen Nian was not yet asleep. She could clearly feel the man's touch.

She did not move, maintaining the posture of sleeping.

Until she felt the mattress beside her sink down, followed by falling into his warm embrace again.

Lu Lingchuan got into bed and took her into his arms.

Only by hugging her like this could he soothe the uneasiness in his heart.

Shen Nian’s spirit had been somewhat chaotic originally. Smelling the familiar scent, his unique smell, she clearly felt herself being soothed.

She also fell soundly asleep unknowingly.

In previous years, in the days around Ling Rui’s birthday, Shen Nian would be plagued by nightmares, dreaming of fragments of the past with Ling Rui, dreaming of Ling Rui crying and questioning her why she abandoned her, dreaming of Ling Rui becoming a malicious ghost coming to take her life...

Only this time, she slept without dreams all night, waking up naturally.

Opening her eyes, she found it was already light out.

Neither she nor Lu Lingchuan had drawn the curtains last night, so the morning sunlight shone straight into the room through the windows. Shen Nian was awakened by the sunshine.

As she opened her eyes, she saw the man’s enlarged face right in front of her.

Shen Nian was stunned seeing that face.

It had been a long time since she had observed him so closely. It felt like she was dreaming.

He had changed a lot over the years and had become more mature and stable.

Even when asleep, his sharp brows were still frowning.

Did he dream of something unpleasant?

Shen Nian couldn't help reaching out to touch his eyebrows lightly.

Originally sound asleep, Lu Lingchuan suddenly opened his eyes, startling Shen Nian.

She reflexively pulled her hand back, wanting to escape Lu Lingchuan’s embrace, but the man did not give her a chance, hugging her tightly.